darina , i'm here for you :D

hey , hey , dont worry ..
dont cry .
me and hyukkie and jonghyun and all are here for you .
and not forgetting yanie ,
okay ?
yeah , i know how you feeling exactly .
hey , we are here for you when you need ask .
i know it hurts to see him saying about someone else,
but hey , you have no wrong in not liking him right?
you have your rights?

okay okay ... i know you are happy to see him but i know
deep down you are hurting because he's not yours..
i will talk to you soon ..
please darina dont cry ..
or i will start to cry too ...
:X

saranghae twinn :D

A love that always hurt only me,

yeah , and once again i pathetically smile again when i see you ,
what is happening to me ?
you just had to appear , you just had to be there :X
but why ?
tell me why why why why !
=.=

yeah ,

you hurt me but ...

i found something so true :X
and it is about you ...

I hate how you make me smile. I hate how every time your name is mentioned, my stomach churns and my heart starts racing. I hate how we’re not even friends. I hate how we look each other straight in the eye and don’t say a word. I hate how I try so hard to mean something to you. And I hate the fact that I can’t stop thinking about you, because it kills me inside knowing that I’m nothing to you.

oppa , naega kaseum neomu apayeo ..

what am i gonna do in 2 months ?

2 months more till the last goodbye .

2 months more till i no longer will ever see him again .

What am i gonna do ?

is this how it feels like when it is farewell ?

Why must i feel the pain ?

why must i feel all this feelings and he doesnt =.=

.....

yeah , the feeling kept coming back, no matter how hard i tried to keep

telling myself , i am over you and done . but no , whenever you appear ,

i start to smile for no reason . but the funny thing is that , i remembered

i managed to get you out of my mind but it only lasted a week maybe?

maybe if i tried harder it will help me forget you as these months passes by .

in the first place , could i even erase you from this mind and remove you from my heart?

sometimes i am tired of waiting for you ,

tried of waiting for you when i know i will never be with you ,

tired of all this looking from a distance , =.=

.......

Why must i fall for you in the first place?

Why must you make me fall in love with you ?

if we didnt met , if i didnt see you , maybe all these wouldnt have happened

and my heart wouldnt get broken . Worst still . it wouldnt be broken by you .

.......

i used to dont even care about you , i used to be just normal and my heart dont

even start to flutter when you're near but something about you this year ,

just makes it alot of difference . Loving you was my punishment , because the more

i love you , the more i think of you , the more i freaking see you ,

the more the pain in my heart starts to deepen and swell .

.......

Cant you understand my heart?

Why cant you answer me when i shout I Love You to you ,

.........

you going to leave soon as months goes by , as days goes by ,

and i know i cant even say goodbye to you ,

you would never know me and neither will you forget me .

but i know , i will never forget you ...

.......

As much as i wanted to forget you ,

i just cant .

that is the pain of a one sided love T.T

neomu , saranghae~

heartbreaking and made me cry .. like seriously

dont you ?

i know Darina and Yanie would :(

saranghae~~

GOD THIS SONG T.T
and JAEJIN-ARH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why so heartbreaking and sweet :D MMMMMMMMMMMMM

i will forever remember and ♥ 210810 ♥ :D

credits to cosmic

Today as usual . went school . hahaha!

took the bus was like damn sleepy so i on playlist.

and all types of songs came out .

but then yanie smsed and i woke up , den she smsed again

i replied and sleep again till i cant even sleep so i just look out at the window uh.

den had lessons blahblahblah .

ahaha!

as per normal things were alright :D hehe^^

anyway ,

nothing special happened today at all . just as usual and normal .

Tomorrow got DNT , haish , our class damn slow as compare to the other group of our class.

anyway ?

what is the lastest kpop news of my fave bands?

eh ?

i dont know , erm.. all i noe in a week time SM is out for SMTOWN in LA =.=

sad sad sad ..

haishh .. dont know what else uh . hahaha!

waiting for people to be online la~

and also

i will forever remember and ♥ 210810 ♥ :D

everybody clap clap clap ~

i just realised , that i have this , the one they introduce themselves :D

hehehe^^

kays~ random post right? but i was looking through my camera's vid,

and came across this . yeayea~

hahaha!

erm . i miss them too darina~ i really do !

haiz..

it all happen damn fast . one minute they are on stage ,

the other they alr on a plane back to korea =.=

we hope to see ya soon CNBLUE!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!

If you hate us so much might as well dont act nice to us please , it is just plain disgusting

T.T

i thought you all were nice people , like not racist and accept people

behaviours . BUT NO! what you all said was just hurtful . hey ,

for your freaking info it is our mouth and not yours and btw ,

it is not our fault that you dont have much fun like ours ?

and , what is a class without any noise? ?

if you are gonna hate us , hey , we have like 2 more years seeing the

same faces again .

pretending to be nice when behind the freaking computer you are talking

full craps and shit about us .

and GOD !

so what if one laughter is loud , it is a called a laughter people.

where is the fun in life without laughters. FREAKING PEOPLE!

LISTEN TO THE CNBLUE !

what i saw and what i know . i think it is gonna be a long post. maybe :D

haha .! okay let's start!!

okay . so first me and Darina went in :D hehe^^ yeap we went in .

Then our hearts were pumping like damn fast and n

ervous like all kind of emotions were mixed together .

Surprising like the fans were mostly nunas. like are u kidding me type of situation .

okayokay .

so waited for like almost half an hour , until . hehehe^^ YONGHWA!

yonghwa went out first then followed by the rest! like suddenly the hall was full of screaming fans and name chantings :D hehe^^ like Yonghwa was blabbering in english which i managed to understand like a few the rest was just lost and confusing but overall he was great. So then they introduced themselves .

AWW .. Minhyuk was so cute they were going to perform .

The songs were , I'm a Loner , Lovelight , Love revolution ,Now or Never, Where will you go and also , Burning ver . of I'm a loner . they sang quite alot of songs right? Like before i forget , they even performed LOVE :D duh ? okay , so they first performed Let's Go Crazy right ?

Screaming and clapping was included

Then fans started screaming their heads off ! :D haha^^

Erm like everyone was chanting all names and all the lyrics together . haha!

Minhyuk twirled his sticks :D hehe^^ cuteness . Jungshin was concentrated with his bass and

Jonghyun as usual kept smiling and smiling :D hehehe^^and Yonghwa waved the first time to everyone.

so after that performance was their introduction . hehe^^

Yonghwa as usual with his english and mostly asking the fans to Shhh... ,Jungshin was okay ,

then it was Jonghyun , i cant hear clearly what he was saying but his voice was sweet and then Minhyuk , awww....

Cuteness and he was the one saying what songs they will be performing :D but then they was some sound problem and minhyuk ran into the backstage to inform them . cuteness! Then

came ,

Love revolution if i am not wrong , OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Jungshin sang/rap ? Omg which make me evrn more in love with LOVE REVOLUTION !

Ehehehehe ^^ nice !~~ i wanted to scream ! like Jungshin >. like nice voice to hear .

hehe^^ he should really rap and sing instead of always snapping his fingers like he did in WGM .

haha! It made me fall in love with that song because Jungshin sang it :D hehe^^

then followed by I'm A Loner, 'Love Love My Love Is Gone~~~~'

omg Me and Darina was like singing along to all the lyrics non-stop.

Then after that song , they sang LoveLight . Everyone was like too busy screaming to

even remember the lyrics . hehe^^ when Yonghwa asked to sing everyone was too

blank but tried hard to sing :D hee~ like it was really nice and sweet :D hehe^^ great job

to both Yonghwa and Jonghyun for the singing:D Like some said that Jonghyun

kept pulling his shirt and his pants :D hahaha! cute uh ~ then it was ,

but Yonghwa was shocked when he asked again to sing along most fans did and he was like WOW~!

Then they performed erm , LOVE!! everyone started to scream and singing

along and clap in everyway possible . hehe^^ then when it was part of the part

where CNBLUE asked fans to scream and make you high, the whole hall was full of screaming fans well , including me and Darina. at the background it was showing LOVE mv .

nice nice nice. that was when i had an eye-contact with jungshin through my binoculars . hahaha!

Soon came the encore !

everyone was shouted encore and guess what ,

they did they performed the burning version of i'm a loner :D

and Yonghwa asked everyone to stand and rock along with them.

Fans were jumping and screaming as usual . And Jonghyun pheww..

was seriously burning ! everyone in the stage was hot when performing

the burning ver. , i eyed contacted with him too and he smiled . haha! while darina too ....

he smiled at her too~~ then Darina wanted to hit me with

the freaking binoculars well it was like 1cm away from my face ..

hahaha so when they performed one way~ one time~,

it showed screen of them in black in white singing alot in freaking 3D . hehehe^^ yeap .

and Minhyuk side profile is loved . again i heard Jungshin rapped but this time

it was with Minhyuk songs because i dont really like the beat ,

but once they performed it , whoa , i LOVE IT! the screen that the showed was hotness ,

everyone was wearing black and Jonghyun and Minhyuk hair was awesome and hot!

hehe~ then lastly , they performed now or never , hehehe^^ mic problems again in the end but Yonghwa apologize about it the question and answer part

! haha! then i remember from those questions they asked if they werent in cnblue where will they be ,

Jungshin answered , he will be a photographer ,

Jonghyun answered , he will be an athlete (:D hmmm..)

and before Yonghwa could answered , a fan screamed Snsd ! and he laughed

and whispered to minhyuk but he showed his wedding ring :D

hahaha but he did answered it was a shoe designer, and

Minhyuk answered he will be like us

FANS of idols . hehe^^ one more question was erm if i am not wrong ,

it was if they were to have a new album will they come to Singapore for a full concert ? i cant really remember who said what but i did remembered Minhyuk answering 'OF COURSE!'

awwwwwwwwwww. it just shot me to death because of the cuteness when he said that. awww.. then rest i couldnt really remember much because busy screaming. then it was to grant fans wishes .

JEALOUSY OCCUR TO THOSE WHO DIDNT GET INCLUDING US!

fans gotten hugs , serenade song from yonghwa but got a hug from the back by cnblue T.T

gotten to take a picture with them T.T and of course a freaking signed cnblue album by all of them !

cry cry cry cry~~

then there was a special give where by randoms fans get to receive cnblue stuff ,

Jungshin = t-shirt that had been worn ,

Jonghyun = a signed guitar pick

Yonghwa = a signed guitar pick

and Minhyuk .NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!= a freaking pair of his drum sticks T.T T.T

then after that they showed a fan video of them . everyone was embarassed

but they must be touched :D thanks cnbluesgfc !! and at the end CNBLUE waved to us all ...

omg!!! i managed to get an eye contact with jungshin and minhyuk when they waved

omg omgomgogmomg!!!!!!!!

they waved at us people! they freaking waved!!!!! :D :D :D

ending it here , and i am proud to say !

EVERYONE WAS SO GOOD-LOOKING IN PERSON. AND YONGHWA IS GOOD IN INTERACTING WITH FANS BUT IT MADE US LAUGH

when he asked us to shhhhhh everytime he wanted to say something ,

Minhyuk was hotness in the drums , Jonghyun was burning with his guitar and

Jungshin was cool with his bass..... overall performance cool and great and i

never wanted it to end please the next time CNBLUE coming here for concert pls try

be working with sistics for tickets T.T thanks! videos of interview are

at my facebook account .performance yet to upload!

bye~ so coming soon my version of fancam :D hahahah!!

Love Love Love :D

credits to Teensmag :D

I CANT FREAKING BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WE ARE ACTUALLY GONNA SEE THEM SOON !
AND THE WORD SOON IS LIKE TOMORROW !!!!!!!! MMMMMMM--MMMMMM
LIKE EH-EH
IT FEELS LIKE A FREAKING DREAM :D LIKE NO JOKE TYPE OF SITUATION
.
LIKE FINALLY I CAN SEE THEM IN MY OWN EYES.
LIKE EVEN THOUGH SOME PPL GET TO SEE THEM TODAY AND YESTERDAY ,
AT LEAST THE BEST PART OF TOMORROW SHOWCASE IS THAT IT IS
A PRIVATE EVENT :D ONLY LIKE 1000 PLUS PPL CAN VIEW WITH TICKETS!
HEHEHEHE^^

LIKE DAMN EXCITED UH AND HAPPY.

AND SPEECHLESS...

LIKE EH-EH

TOO MUCH OF A DREAM COME TRUE!!

CANT WAIT!!!

CNBLUE HERE WE COME .

LOVE LOVE LOVE~~

This Just Sucks TTM

Credits: HeeChul's Baidu Bar

LOST AND CONFUSED !
all i know is that i want MEET LADY HEE HEE <3 <3
Friends having their problems .
I can do nothing about it even if i could i still cant.i can
only lend a listening ear .

sometimes , i tell myself , have i hide all problems to
myself abit too much ?

hilarious and silent laugh day ~

HAHAHAHAHA!

Taemin <3>

no..... no ...... i wont go back to him anymore even though

i liked him first in shinee but no .. i cant.. :(

omg i dont even know where to freaking start like seriously .

kay ! morning Darina and Me like reached the freaking school like at 0720 .

hahaha! so we have like freaking 50 mins till like the bell ring .

Den i asked yanie where she was den she was like still at home.

den talk craps with Darina as usual . hahaha! yeah ..

den Yanie came den we started to talk about YOG . out of all things.

we TALKED ABOUT YOG! hahaha! was laughing and so on . Den blah2

den after that PE . hehehe^^ was like doing the freaking hitting the bat den i

was like laughing again becos Yanie was like being a freaking commentator .

den blahblah . Recess and we sat like a few mins at the bench den went up class.

ahhaha.

and that is when the laughter starts . actually during maths. heh ^ i rank 7 oi .

7!! hahaha . but out of all ppl to be 7th place with me is Jian Kai uh ?

haizzz...

den started laughing once yanie shouted ______!!! like out of the blue.

and me and yanie and shalini saw him . hahaha! den darina was like

despo and kept saying 'manemanemane?' and shaking her head everywhere.

ahahaha! hilarious and i kept mimicking her freaking reactions . like

'dont lie , kaw jgn tipu akw , dont ! ' and others uh . hahaha!

omg silent laughters are hard to control cos u have to be silent and not out loud.

ahahaha!

kkk .. den after el den went home and ohh .. we got to go see YOG badminton .yeah

out of sports but still . hahahaha!

and best of all

we are joining the kpop dance battle thingy with other ppl age 15!!! hehehe^^

yes uh !!! LOVE IT!!!

kkk..

gtg~

bye!

sorry sorry sorry sorry ..

OMG PEOPLE THIS MAKES ME EVEN MORE EXCITED TO GO TO SUPERSHOW3!

LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! EH-EH!!!!

EVEN MY SIS WAS LIKE I WANT GO BUT IT IS A MAYBE!!!

MMMMMMMM-URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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like i want see lady hee hee , i want see orange kyu , i wan see

Omg lady hee hee is hilarious . you should noe who by the name of HEE hee !! haha!

omg with heels .. eh-eh .. i want go there like today is their last concert in korea .

at 3PM S'pore timing uh . like seriously are u kidding me. need save money cos

the tickets might be selling in a nearer date . like seriously need get their merchandise ,

i need get pictures taken in real life event hough i noe 50/50 percent chance can bring

cameras but if cant then i will have to sneak it in . like seriously i will hide it

carefully... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i need see KYUHYUN!!!! MY FREAKING KYUHYUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have waited 4 YEARSSSS AND THIS IS MY CHANCE !!! HEHEHEHE

kk .. gtg update later again uh !

why do i have to fall for, another guy that make me cry for ?

imagine someone like this appear infront of you
and started to smile at you for no reason ?

eh-eh . this picture . hahaha! this is like from my sis found it inside her folder.

hahaha! this nuna =.=

kk ..

hmmm ... finally the tickets are here but god must the tickets be damn plain ?

unlike those in korea which is blue in colour and nice to keep for memories T.T

haizzz.. but whatever we already had the tickets :D hehehe^^

anyway , today nothing much happened .. hahaha!

thank god today is like friday so tmr is saturday :D hehe^^

erm... planning to go lot one with sis and mom ~ !! blahlblah..

god ! today i am damn sleepy ~ hahahaha~ and today i was like in my malay

mode cos i was like speaking in good malay to Darina and Yanie .

ahahaha! LOL right?

kkk.. gtg~

byee~~

Why must you do this

i'm giving up on you .

i cant stand your freaking status .

One time you are with her , and the other your with another her..

Like are u freaking kidding me ?

you hurt me twice already without you even knowing it .

the pain was silent yet painful.

it is funny how someone could forget one's love in a short time right?

so i am trying to give up on you . maybe i already did but my feelings

are still there. but not any longer . the sight of you just hurts me moreover knowing

you are with someone that i hate .

i shouldnt care anymore about you . i never ever exist in your world ,

i am just a stranger and forever you will never know me .

and i will just pretend that i have never EVER met you in my life.

baby , let me love ya , love ya..

Love the pic alot :D like seriously , it just makes me smile :D
everyone doing different thing . hehehe^^

Current mood : Tired and moodless...

Current song : Moonlover by some korean singer (sis listening to it uh)

anyway wad did i do today ?
Went Lot One .
blahblah .. hahaha!
then studied .
Then went and play , with Yanie and Darina .
hehs .
like look at the retarded and idiotic video at FACEBOOK :D
hehehe^^ me and Darina was like screaming / shouting :
YANIE! YANIE!!! hahahhaha (:
like i was like going to vomit and Darina wanted to die.
hahahaha!
omg epic video :D hehehe^^
Yaniegave us an evil laugh . like seriously smirking all the way
while me and Darina like gonna drop dead soon .
then afterwards , nisa headed off first , den walkwalkwalk .
hehehe^^ took pictures ... <3>and there is OMG situation . hehes ... kkk ...

kkk ... gtg :D hahahaha~!!

oh yeah , btw , i have recently updated my fanfics. about 2 of them . haha

if i were given a chance,
i would want to tell him i once love him ..

Because of you

Tell me Why Why Why ...

Current mood : Pissed and confused .
Current song : nobody (rainstone remix)
Current doing : browsing facebook and chatting with Darina :D

Haizz...
tomorrow study group and i think after tomorrow i wont be using
the computer till thursday :D
hehehe^^
yeap i think i want take a break and concentrate on my studies more
.
i cant fail this.
i cant let myself fall .
i need to work hard. !
i can do ! fighting!
tomorrow i will freaking study like mad until
i will fully understand the questions :D
ehehe^^
and pissed with the people who could get the freaking sides seats.
why why why why ....
will know the answer why tomorrow by prooflabel.

hope the tickets arrive tomorrow too :D
hehehe^^

gd night dearys~

what will my mamma do ?

Lies , Lies , Lies , Lies ,

currently chatting with Darina .

Bored and need do something .
hahaha! will update this post soon uh .
dont worry :D
hehehe^^

i'm so cra cra crazy..

T.T

current mode : Tired and Sleepy .

Current Feeling : Sad and happy .

Haisshh .. Exams are killing me.

Maths coming soon.

Bored .

Darina not online and no one chat with me .

Meeting the eh-ehs soon .

:D

2 more weeks till i get see CNBLUE <3>

afew more days till fasting month,

and need save more money :D hehe^^