Lee Kiseop

Kiseop oppa!!!!!

ahhh~

he looks freaking hot both here :D OHMYGOD!!!!

ahhhhhhhh~~

hehehehe ^_^

i'm like spazzing bout him since i watch the ukiss kiss chef? chef kiss? ahh whatever xD

cuteness! (:

he even have the same birthday as Nisa .

17 january. Random and coincidental right?

but omg he just looks freaking good here :D

KISEOP!KISEOP!KISEOP.

okayokay i'm outta here (:

byebyebye!

Unexpected

Went Vivo with mom to get myself a new school bag.

So walked around and i finally drank my starbucks :D

okayokay,

then mom said she wanted to go in TANGS.

then i was like why not maybe they sell bags there.

Then,

i know someone works there , i know minho worked there,

so i thought maybe i'll see him there but

Guess what,

It was HIM!

_________ aka Kyu,

he was like standing there folding clothes .

He works there goodness gracious.

Like serious, my body just went numb. Out of all places i had to see him there.

Then GDI we eye-contacted. SHIT!.

i quickly looked away and acted normally,

LOL as though he know me like that. LOL.

but still, my heart was pounding and i know i shouldnt feel this way.

But i did and it kept pounding hard.

then mom went nearer to him because the bag was behind him,

endedup he stood infront of me .

and i was like acting normal .

GOSH!

i've seen you finally....

So close......

i dont know when i ever see you again,

but i had to say since i bought that bag there,

now my school bag reminds me of you :/

is that a good thing?

.....

You're so far like a distant star,

(I've Given Up. )

No longer holding on to something that isnt mine to keep from the start.

maybe.....

I Give My All,

Currently addicted to this .

Mariah Carey -My All

Its an old song from the 1990's . Probably around 1998 .

But hey, songs dont expired right?

hehehe ^__^

But this song is really very nice!

Should check it out! ((:

hehehe ^__^

okay i'm off (:

Went out with Dearie Yesterday (:

well yeah, more pics at FB xD kekekekeke~

hmm, had a lot of fun with her today seriously.

i cant even stop laughing xD

We window shopped alot !

Took neoprints with her and thats the first NEOPRINT OF US <3

hehehehe ^_^

hmm, Insyirah saw myungsoo look-alike when we were having

our frappes at mccafe xD

then i was too slow and i missed it by only afew secs.

then on the way home we saw someone who looks like kyung ,

HAHAHA, then insyirah started to smile becos duh,

someone looks like your freaking biased!

hehehehe ^____^

so going out with her was fun!

P.S

me and insyirah decided to not wear wedges again unless for special ocassion xD

we were like damn tired and our legs were hurting xD

omgggggg -.-" really .

we gonna wear our normal flats or sneakers next time!

hehehehe .

A LESSON LEARN FOR BOTH OF US :P

hmmm, and btw i'm hooked with Block B <3 <3 <3

Pyong* Pyong*

One In A Million,

OHMYGOSH,

I dont even know how many times i repeat this song.

I can seriously relate to this song like manymany.

Its not that one in a million song though,

its Neyo's One In A Million :D

Ahhh~

I think i just raped this song in my IPOD xD

HAHAHAHAHAA!

7 June ! CANT WAIT FOR IT! HEHEHE ^_^

GOING TOWN WITH MY LOVELIES~

WOOHOO! :D

GotToGot :P

byebye!

MBLAQ ❤

I GOT TO SEE THEM !! OHMYGOD!!

*SCREAMS IN HAPPINESS* :D

When with Insyirah then along the way Darina and Shalini came as well.

Stood at the freaking barrigate for like one and a half hour ,

reached airport at 11 plus,

went to terminal 3 at 1 something ,

then went its near 230 we all stood up standing.

GOSH, they only came out at 0330 -.-"

but i continued waiting anyway xD

THEN FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST PERSON WAS MIR!!!! ❤❤

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!

SO FREAKING CUTE ! WITH HIS GEEK GLASSES!

LIKE EH-EH HE WAS JUST DAMN NEAR? LIKE AFEW CM AWAY?

THEN CAME CHEUNDONG, THEN SEUNGHO, GO AND THEN JOON!!!

AHH~

EVERYONE HAD BLACK HAIR --> MBLAQ HAHA. BLACK.

GOSH, JOON WAS LOOKED TIRED >.< BUT I MANAGED TO WAVE AT MIR,

AND GUESS WHAT? HE WAVED BACK!

*JUMPS FOR JOY!* kk lol.

Waited for long hours but 5-10 secs only we saw them . LOL.

OMG CAN I JUST REPEAT THE MOMENT? SERIOUSLY?!

:D

kaykay, and then they are off~❤

TOOK THE TRAIN WITH SHALINI AND DARINA SINCE INSYIRAH WENT BUGIS.

then shalini went off first then left me and darina then,

went we reaching bukit batok, darina said if only BTFG was there~

then i was looking around, we were at bukit batok ,

then i saw this guy , i thought just some random omg situation,

then i looked again, it was BTFG!

i was just O_O

then told darina then she started smiling LOL.

kay weird story to even write it out all xD

so stopping here :D

hehehe.

best part, i got to wash my eyes today becos of MBLAQ ❤

Why do i still have this weird feeling...

It really sucks when you really love someone, and they no longer feel the same about you.

Exactly.

that's exactly what i'm feeling right now,

i dont really use the word LOVE, its more to LIKE..?

but its still the same right?

i dont really know how to explain what the REAL feeling is.

because i dont even know.

Sighs,

Someone help me here, i dont know what to do,

i dont even think anyone is even reading this.

I cant seem to avoid this situation,

No Matter How Hard I Try , It Still Comes Back To Me.

because you're just there,

i'm going to see you till i graduate..

its bad enough we dont even talk to each other,

and then you kept giving me that look as though i done something wrong.

sighs..

you'll never know what i am thinking when i see you,

and yet , everyday i still think about it.

I dont want this anymore,

please...?

Just for once...

talk to me like you do to everyone else?

please...?

i know with them , my smile last the longest.

How can i not love them ..?

they are my little dearies <3

They are people whom i trust and love alot.

They understand me best when no one else does.

They are always there when i am down .

They are the bestest friends whom you wont regret meeting.

They are the ones who makes me happy and laugh .

They never let me down and thats why i LOVE them so much!

Mani Mani Saranghaeyo <3

ehehehe.

you all know i do :D

If I can’t get you no matter how hard I try then you aren’t the one

You wont understand,
You will never know....
I'm scared and i hate this sudden feeling.
Yes i do admit ever since the day of the incident, i've been thinking
whether you still like me ..?
Because a part me still like you . I dont know why but you have been
in my mind ever since . Yes i know i tried to move on during sec 2.
And apparently i did. I fell in love . But not with you. I figure out
that during that time , we both might as well just move on ,
i fell in love hard for someone but that someone doesnt even notice
me . Dont even know i even existed but i fell for him and got my
heartbroken in the process.. It hurts alot but i endured it .
For the whole sec 2 year, in my mind was him not you because like i
said , i moved on. Till now he is still in mind too... Someone who
doesnt even know me and i fell in love with. I am pathetic right..? :
( an idiot who thinks that that person will like her back, yeah thats
me...
Then that guy left... He left me without goodbye .. He left without
knowing my feelings for him.. He left without me having the chance to
talk to him.. He just LEFT. he graduated. No longer in my school.. I
miss him a hell lot ! Really i do.
He LEFT, I WAITED..
oh dear, why did i tried moving on..? It hurts more. I'm already
hurt that we broke off and you didnt even know that real reason behind
it till now.. Then i was hurt even more when i fell in love with him :
( when i fall for him, i watched him fall in love with someone else
twice. So basically, i'm in love with two guys..? People say when you
cant decide between two, always choose the 2nd one because if you love
the first one, you wouldnt be falling for the 2nd one. When i was in
love with him, i forgotten all about you, but now that he is gone, all
i could think of is you, you're going to think how selfish and
unreasonable i am . Sighs. Someone told me that i'm too late , you
waited for 2 years , but to think again if i am too late , why didnt
the past 2 years you talk to me? Everytime you see me , its like you
want to avoid me . You never once smile at me again, you always will
just look for a second an then turn away like as though i'm someone
you hate.. Remember the times we had when we were still together?
I miss it you know..? Remember the gift you gave me ? Is
It is still with me if you ever wonder where it is.. And Remember
during sec1 camp? We held hands . You helped me climb the slope. We
were in the same group. Then we played the rubber band thingy and you
tried to hit me but missed . Memories. Sec 1 camp was a month after
our breakup. But we were still okay then. Then as time passes , we
just started drifting apart. I miss talking to you. I miss your
goodnights and goodmornings . I miss hearing you say what a great gf i
am to you. I miss texting with you till late nights. Dont you..? :
( sighs. Am i too late ?
You wouldnt take me back right?
You wouldnt want me back right?
You dont have any feelings for me anymore..?
You wouldnt even want to see me anymore right ?
I dont want you to hate me really, i just miss talking to you.
I cant stand it any longer not talking to you while others can,
Do you know it leaves a ache in my heart when others can just talk to
you and have a great time laughing with you...?
Do you know i just had to keep smiling face when others told me that
they had fun?
I want to talk and laugh with you and be happy, i cant take it any
longer looking at others being so close to you and i'm just there
looking like some retard...
Do you know i long to talk to you...
I dont even think you give a damn :(
Sighs...
Please for once ..?
Talk to me ..?
:(((
Aish, i give up ! Seriously i do !
I cant do this to myself anymore.
If you want me back and still love me , you would have done all this
earlier.. If you really had given up 2 years of waiting then i think i
should to.
I'm strong, and i cant let this matter distract me . I cant keep
hoping for something that aint going to happen. I cant keep waiting
for you since you already gven up.
Its too late, i'm too late. I learnt my lesson. I give up , i'm just
going to give you up. I'm just going to ignore all this as though it
never happen.
As though the sudden feeling waa just passing by. I'm going to forget
you and just erase you away, because i cant keep doing this thing...
Really i cant..
Do you know how much it hurts to keep on wishing that one day you
would talk to me when i can clearly see you wouldnt.
I'm just tired of all this. If you really care, you would show it and
i am afraid you do not. I was just depending to much on hope.
I hate the word hope, because at the end of day, it will all come
crashing down..
And so i say, goodbye to you,
You'll no longer be in my mind or in my heart..
I had enough and i want it to stop,
I will move on...
So once again goodbye to you even if i dont want it to be the last
goodbye..
But i had to , i have to move on to keep myself happy and i know you
do too (:

we were just not meant to be and i have finally accepted that :D

it hurts...

It hurts . you know?

the feeling you get when you like someone but when they see you

its like they try to avoid you and ignore you.

It hurts more knowing that maybe ,

you wont return my feelings again...

Why cant we just talk ?

i know its awkward but i dont want to be the first one

starting the freaking conversation...

Like this quote, "i want to talk to you but i'm scared i sound desperate and annoy you"

:(

sighs... this whole thing has been in my head for a year

yet, i havent been telling anyone.. because i know people will just laugh at me:/

if i said i want you back, what will you say?

if i said i love you again , willl you accept it?

if i said, lets start over, will you agree?

all i'm hoping for is to be with you and be happy,

this past few days , months deep inside i kept feeling,

the feeling of pain and insecure...

i'm scared of being rejected...

but please...?

it hurts too much because it is still in my mind ..

and i hate the feeling...

seriously...

ps. so long never blog then yasmin suddenly sms me about my blog so i might as well blog...

Kyuhyun...

OHMYGOODNESSGRACIOUSCHOKYUHYUN!!!!!!!!!!!

You make me speechless and just in awe xD

like EH-EH! how much cuter and hotter can you be? (:

YOU make me FALL in LOVE with YOU all OVER AGAIN!

and SJM song was DAEBAK!

SERIOUSLY IT WAS!

*perfection*

it was perfection alright the teaser and the song xD

MMMMMMM-ing ((:

hahaha! okay la gtg ,

continue chatting with insyirah and studying my freaking SOCIAL STUDIES for tomorrow :/

kill me now.....

aigooo..

byebye...

...

Happy Bithday CHO KYUHYUN.

Gosh! This HOT person here (:

HOTNESS Cho Kyuhyun !

finally it is his birthday today and whoa, is he 8 years older but who the hell cares?

He is my freaking BIASED since i was 10 xD hahaha. and it never changes (:

Saranghaeyo Cho Kyuhyun <3

Gosh la eh, too CUTE!

3 Febuary , Always going to remember this date (:

and i know there is an inside story of another person during this date in 2010

(i know you know Darina.)

HAHAHAHA! okayokay,

me off and going to go Aunt's place today (: hahaha for Dinner xD hahaha!

kkk byebye!

Life is getting Tiring...

Aigoo,

Life is getting tiring, i mean my Life.

Almost everyday , I've been going back home late because of CCA,

Not only that,, i have tuition classes on the same day as my CCA. Like what a timing -.-

Plus, by week 6 , going start doing the mural with my friends xD GOSH!

"kill me now"

busy busy busy, suddenly i feel so motivated , to get at least less than 17 for Os.

i know maybe somewhere in my HEART , i can do IT! but can i?

*prays*

-sighs-

Okayokay , didnt managed to get ss3 tickets ..... :'(

.....

Someone left this world ... on the 17 Jan , cried till eyes were puffy ,

Everyone was devastated and just breakdown..... it was my Grandfather... My dearest Grandfather...

i know, that HE will e Happy up there in Heaven (: watching us here fromabove (:

will miss him but i know i still LOVE him (:

FOREVER !

English Drama.

yeah , that's my life xD

English Drama Student. That's Me.

What do you expect? Something different? hehs.

These few days has been a tiring week for me. Almost every single day i will be home late.

Can someone take over my life for me?

Everyday feels like i've been torture .... Everyday i go home , i will be dead tired to do anything.

In school i feel like sleeping not because i sleep late but just T.I.R.E.D

that's my life now......

Wanna Exchange Life For A Day?

.....sighs....

i'm off, byebye

Before The Dawn

allah~~ hehehehehe^^

infinite comeback's was good actually :DDD i am freaking addicted to the song xD before the dawn~before the dawn~ hehehe. kaykay.. and freakingly sungyeol looked good in this comeback ! well actually woohyun and myungsoo too! like omg situation people sia~! HAHAHA! kk...

hope those hair stayed like that >.<>.<>

later gonna do that welfare thingy , aish... but if receive points for doing so why not :P hehehehe..

sunday is today and time i can assure it is gonna be fast >.<

kay la. i'm off~

byebye