you are torturing me.

I JUST LOVE MY EH-EHs / The Loners alot.
:D
LOve you guys to the freaking max <3 <3

God let all of us meet each other and be together :D

my wish came true XD

I Saw There Right Below when i came down . . . .

my wish came true.

but i'm left with a few days?

my love is like fool .

friends all jalan-ing raya while i am stucked here,
and i freaking got hurt .
i fell on the way back from home :(
like i fell down on the freaking slope :X
like out of all things to fell onto .
a slope ?!!?
aish! now i hurt my neck . like sprained it. not really sprain.
but you get what i mean . like seriously.
i cant even turn my neck without a little pain coming back.
OHMYGOD uh . aish .. can i just like cry with the pain .]it hurts
badly. and mom put medication and it burnts like hell lot.
-.-"
what a freaking day to happened.
sis ask why never go with my friends for jalan raya , said cant go
cos of my freaking period and i just fell down. hello?
LOL!
and i freaking forgotten what else to write.
o.o
oh yeah , i gotten money today :D hehehe.
30 dollars richer :D
muahahahaha.

i didnt see you but something is wrong

i search for you .

but i wasnt that disappointed at all that i didnt see you .

but where were you ?

in a week , i saw you once .

maybe i will never see you again and you will be gone from my life.

and that is the last thing i want to happen :(

again , it is always because of you .

Just now someone just had to say , you have been kissed before. i put a smile when someone said it , thinking it is going to be okay. but deep down inside i wanted to cry i dont know why . my heart just suddenly hurts. i kept quiet and tried to ignore what is being said :( you hurt me yet again without knowing :(

Boy ,you're Gorgeous (:

OMGOMGOMGOMG!!

Main point of Today , First when canteen in the freaking morning and there you are over there from the

the middle of the walkway was YOU .

YOU were right in front of my very eye . and you looked at me but i missed it :(

i cant even look at you with feeling the excitement in myself. everytime i tried to look at you ,

my heart just cant seem to stop beating very fast.

you were just there . Even when the bells when off you were still there and i was able to

see you from above :D it was such a nice timing and a perfect day isnt it ? (:

he made my freaking day.

...............................

Main point of today no.2 , While walking back , me and Darina both saw this ITE guy .

and OMG people . new word for omg situation is ........ G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S . he was freaking

Gorgeous people . with the hair , sneakers and listening to his earpiece . like eh-eh this people~

like his side profile freaking ROCKS to the freaking of the freaking MAXX!!

it was beyond words. like his hair was to the side. Me and Darina cant even stop laughing .

Can i tell you something . ..

Me and Darina both freaking pee like right at that moment .

:X sick. sick . sick . But what to do .. hehehe^^

like seriously this guy is like a freaking OMG GORGEOUS SITUATION !!!

ahh .. he made my day . . . .

Because of him me and darina cant even walk straight and cant stop ourselves from laughing.

it was as though he brought a laughing cgas with him :X

hehehe^^ cute la .

HOT PEOPLE FREAKING HOT !!!! :D AND BEST OF ALL HE IS FREAKING TALL!!!!

to that guy ,

Can i see you again ?

like you are just a stranger but you made my heart beat beats so damn fast.

you made smile for no reason .

you are the perfect kind of guy i would want.

:D

can i really see you again ?

:D

hope so <3

FREAKING GORGEOUS OVERLOADED !!!

i saw you today ,

The left side of my heart hurts so much , As it gets crushed by something , Every time I breathe

When I think of you, when I hear something about you

For a long time, my heart was in so much pain,

and i finally i saw you there right in front of my bear eyes :D you were there and it felt like as though it was a dream .

and i cant believed you appeared after 2 weeks ? :(

seeing your face seems to brightened up my freaking days .

but as the day goes on something is going to happened.

it is like i have this funny feeling :(

i search for you doesnt mean i stalk you ,

Where are you?

I want see you like seriously . But you were no where to be found .

i cant even see a slight glance . What if i will never see you again?

what if this is goodbye ?

i dont want this kind of goodbye :(

i'm thinking of you yet it still hurts ...

I was thinking about you again today and i cant seem to stop myself from posting all this

freaking type of post because this is how i truly feel right now .

just now at class while i was talking to darina , we found out that we were left

with 25 more school days and then it is farewell for us to see them .

where were you today?

why cant i see you ? i wanted to see you . i wanted to see your face . i havent seen your face

for a week . and i missed it . why is it then when i search for you , you werent there but

when i am broken and dont even wish to see you , you always appear before me.

when i need you , you are not there , when i dont even want you , you appear ,

why are you doing this to me? it is hurting me . Cant for once you love me?

even if it is just a freaking moment and hug me and tell me you love me ?

.....

..

i dont want farewell ... i dont want to wait for a time where i can see you ,

i want see you everyday , but i know i cant ....

and i will never will ...

and i found something so true ...

Here’s to the kids who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone; who spend hours reading random love quotes to find the right one; who wait online for that one certain person to sign on just to say hello; who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot; who deserve so much more than they get and are willing to fight for it and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted on someone that will never care.

hehes , Selamat Hari Raya

:D hehehehe!!

dont want to talk alot because i am freaking lazy wanna type what happened :D

i love today because everyone came to my house .

blahblah ..

everyone was fasinated bby my cat .. all my cousin put their leg up .

hhaha! and i was like wth ? yeah i know , i was onced like that too ,

i even screamed at the coffee shop . hehs.

so first day ,

not gonna say anything but pictures can right? hehes ...

so took a picture and one of the picture is my profile pic ~

blahblahblah ...

like sis brought her DSLR . God i want one for myself :( and the pictures turn our

very nice :D

one thing i know is ,

and i love how the pctures turned out rectangle :D like a long rectangle ~

i realised when people take candids , the chances are they will know how you truly feel at that moment

then ate like freaking three types of rendeng and non-stop motion ,

like cousin was making that wtf face to me and i was like making it back.

like i am hungry . so what ? hehee . . . . that was the first house la .

and i ate like 5 hotdog bread GOD nora nora nora . . . .

i was like freaking hungry yesterday . . .

kkk... the rest were history dont remember much uh .

yesterday even worse , one whole day i wasnt home til like almost 10 gituh.

like damn tired but at night had a heart to heart talk with Darina .

T_T

talk here and there....

kay now i am freaking tired so off to do other things.

OH
YEAH! ALMOST FORGET !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye~

i didnt see you . . . .

it hurts so bad that you will never know , and you will never feel my pain

I wonder what it will be like if you were mine and i was yours,

and how you will treat and how nice it was to even hold you hand around .

or how you put you arm around me like you did to her or even walk around

school with only you by my side . But those things are just my dream , my fantasy ,

my freaking daydreaming world that no one will know . Why cant for once,

i will be able to be awake and live the dream ? and you were mine . i guess

it will never happen will it -.-

my sad story of love...

i need to stop writing about my sad love life because it just reminds me of him.

i have to go back to my normal cheerful post. right?

maybe i will start tomorrow . but not today .

when darina not online , i tend to think about him and it is not a good habit.

i have to shake it off . he keeps coming back to my mind.

and it is not getting any better as he is leaving me .

and leaving me and will never know my feelings for him .EVER.

will i ever find someone who wll hold me in his arms?

i want to see you badly ..

cant we go back to this ?
we used to be like this carefree and happy .
but we seem to fade somehow .
and i dont like it.
i want the old us .
where we will laugh nonstop and go around together
now mostly it is either three of us , two of us .
not four.
it is damn rare to see the four of us now together.
having fun .
where is the old us ?
did it disappear?

oppa , i'll be waiting like a fool

My feelings arent my feelings ,

Like emptiness inside, it's aching and in pain ,

It feels as though , it was all worn out because of loving you ..

But why at the same time it feels so right to have such a feeling for you ?

I love you and i never forget you forever.. is that too much to ask for?

cant you just once accept me ?

or once dont see me but never even say the word hi ?

what happens if i could forget?

why is this happening to me ?
=.=
i hate this freaking feeling that i am feeling right now~

why does it feel like i could forget you ?
T.T

but then again , once i see you face ,

the word forget just forgets me ...

again , you are in my mind =.=

Can like for awhile i stop thinking of you ?
if this goes on how will i stop thinking of you
when you are gone next year.
and next year means 2 months till the last farewell.
.
i hate this feeling.
i hate falling for you in the first place :X