turn my back to door,

I know I wouldn't forget you, you gave me so much to remember. But I know I'll move on and be fine.

clock ticking and time flying.... less than a week , a few more days till my new school year is starting..... am i even ready? :/ need to make a revolution now.... i want get out of this school fast and go to college... there is nothing in this current school of mine except studying and my best friends.... but sometimes, i imagine, will we even manage to complete this , another 2 years without arguments and dissagreements? :x i dont know but i cant say , i wont promise i wont happened but i hope and wish it doesnt.....

i dont even want to separate from them.... one understands me so much and the other is always there for me ,and other makes me laugh in my bad moods :DDDD i love them! but can i be sure that we wont separate?

:(

....

the questions always linger in my mind....

Can't erase or numb the pain

"I know that it doesn't make sense but I love you."

school starting like in less than a week ..... time flies so much when you are hving so much fun during the holidays. like i dont even want go to school yet seriously... the mood yet to go off... and new year is coming , so fast it is already coming to 2011 , feels like i just went to secondary school yesterday :( next thing i know i will be taking my o-levels. my tuition starting on the 15 jan .... wooo.... gonna have a pretty alot of studying ! need to make myself a plan but have a feeling i wont follow it >.<

kaykay,

addicted to bust your windows and ghost of you alot! hehehe (: love the songs alot actually been listening to more of english songs now then listening to kpop songs... i dont know... maybe for a change? for the past 3-4 years been listening too much kpop already uh. hahahaha

time for a change O.o hehs

kaykay,

gtg~ byebye!

Hello Xperia X8 .. Byebye E63

one of my favourite among the rest of the christmas presents :D hehehehe...
i gotten a new phone (:
cute eh? hehehehe XD

just talking about getting a new phone and bammmed! there you go in christmas monrning i open the box and tada! here comes my new brand new freaking phone! first time using sony though but hey love it! muahahahaha!
kaykay.,..

i'm off!
byebye

dear,

darina, why dont we celebrate christmas together? but not on the day itself. maybe on the 26 or 27 ? we go the flyer thingy ? dont be sad because you think you are a loner on christmas. :( i hate seeing you like this all moody and silent >.<>cheer up!

anyeong nae sarang

one word! his hair~~

hahahaha.

dont know what to post anymore becos mostly on tumblr~

hehehehe

do follow me :DDDDDDDD

PLEASE (: HEHEHE

dont worry but youre worrying me

We are still together and we are not going to separate because i met you first :D

Beast Almightly...

sorry yanie, blog post almost like yours. hehehe >.<

AND YEAP I SAW THEM TODAY WITH YANIE AND ZALIHA ! AND BOY WERE THEY NEAR TO US! AND I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY NEAR AND I FOUND OUT THEY ARE REALLY NICE AND FRIENDLY PEOPLE! THEY ACCEPT GIFTS AND SUCH.
Cant believe when he first came out and he suddenly grabbed my freaking attention and i stared at him almost throughout. Dont know but he just seems cute in a way .. like seriously... see him in a person and you'll know and he is really friendly with the wave and the smile.. woooo~.. kaykay..
I SAW HIM BUT YANIE DIDNT , she missed it maybe she just looked and ignore... aiyoyo. hahaha! he was wearing the same shirt colour as me. and plus with the cute bag.. hahaha! he smiled too and thank god he smiled normally i see fancams he wont. hehehe^^ but still nice to see him in person (:
OHMYGOD! DONGWOON UH! WHY SO CUTE AT THE AIRPORT? plus with the shades and the cardigan.. like you should have turned a whole 360 degree turn but you stopped halfway... but you made my day happy ! and yanie took his pic instead of kikwang. hahaha! but seriously you are freaking tall! and just woo la eh, you are just too cute and handsome to me and it turns out your hair seriously suits you when i meet you in person. hehe!!:DDDD maybe seeing you again next year? probably~
kikwang. i remember the moment i saw him and i screamed at yanie. hahaha! and there she is staring at him and forgot to take picture. her eyes were looking at him but her camera was pointed the other side. haha. how great? he is really tiny in person. hahaha. and yanie sure loves his side profile with the shades. hahaha! but he kept looking down throughout except when he bounced back when he hit on dongwoon when they stopped becos the barrier fell.. whoa.... creepy... hahaha! kaykay.
Yoseob ah! freaking cute with the hoodie with fur! like he took the banner or playcard and cover his face except the eye and boom he eye contacted with dear yanie. boy , was she lucky! hahahaha! like he is really near us and he smiled though we all know they are really tired... right?
hyunseung ah, you blink and you will miss him . hahaha! seriously he walks fast! hahahabut he managed to do a little wave to fan , and yanie always laugh when you mention him. hahaha! yesyes...

hahaha... to know what happened in the morning go yanie's blog ! thankyu!!!!

hehehehee^^ kaykay~

byebye!

and so freaking HAPPY I GOT TO SEE BEAST! DONGWOON

Hello December ♥

it's december, ♥ ♥ ♥

it's already almost 12 months since the first time i laid my eyes on you and fallen in love with you...

bored...

this is getting boring....i am just bored so maybe i post something. hehehe... lol.. will repost this later . alright.. kkk.. will be back~ muahahaha

you know, that i want,to get get get your love,

Dont really think about you now, maybe sometimes, but it seems like i might forget you ... but not a whole 100 percent you are gone from my mind.... you just lingering around but sometimes it just disappeared...

First thing is that i am missing KANG MINHYUK :'( havent seen him active on variety shows but i seen like a clip of him in his drama :x but for like less then a minute ??? like are u kidding me? and freak my lappy just deleted what i type for this post ! urghhhh.... oh yeah ONE WORD FOR TODAY ! HOT!!! RAIN WAS FREAKING HOT IN TODAY'S PERFORMANCE AT THE CLOSING CEREMONY :P HEHEHEHE.. like no joke man! kk.. hehehe. i bet darina died. heheheh.

kkk at 1130 going out maybe i want watch harry potter making :D duh~ hahaha. kkk.. since darina wont be online till midnight plusplus... i go kill time by watching suite life on deck D today's latest episode someone uploaded which supposed to air like this friday. but oh well.. hahahaha.... :D i want cody and bailey back together no joke!!! hehehe

kk

byebyebye~

oh yeah, oh yeah...

no longer lingering in my mind but you appeared at news feed when i was online...

we were going take a pic together but ended up darina ws too slow. hahahaha. so it ended up me mostly in the picture.. but on facebook there is pics of me and her. hehehehe^^ btw, chatting with darina now, about heights . like she said we both grew because her body had gotten longer. and that means she grew.and when she grow , i grow too. which is like seriously people. i grew? like right now? this timing..... >.<

kaykay, this is just creeping me out.

btw, kyuhyun is super hot in kry taiwan :D seriously look at fanpics and fancams. his hair and everything is just perfect! love him lots. (:

sis just pulled the earring out of my ear just now and god does it hurts cos it gotten swollen because supposely the earring doesnt suit me , it gives my itchness. then sis just pulled it out immediately . and laughed... seriously sis? kaykay.. but it did make me feel relieved! hehehehe..

kay i'm off..

byebye~

hehehe

when i hear things like wishes do come true , i will reply , if wishes do come true, then why isnt he mine yet? T_T

Sis do take pics whenever i am not that ready and just snap or she wont say my hair is okay or what . hehehe. well that is sis. but i love all her photography of stuffs. it turns out nice ... especially the one in the engagement thingy..

kk... let's see, saw this news on the tv, and guess what , these teenage girls go and freaking crush a tiny little bunny/rabbit. like seriously people? are u freaking kidding me? like do you have a right mind to even do such thing? like , it is still breathing and alive and there you go sitting on it and still can have that awful smile on your freaking face?!!?! like it disgust me your faces.. it seriously does. you ought to be sent to jail for years . idc how long or forever. i want you to feel how it is like to be tortured while in a jail.. you people are just inhumans...

kaykay, enough of this people... hate them,.....

btw, net is finally okay. hehehe. i miss my twitter and my facebook and especially my blog :) hehehe^^ and now me and darina is like praying really really hard to be able to win those tickets. like people if you will , you get either cat1 or cat2 ! do you know how near is those cats? like freaking near...

hehehe. so wish us luck people~

kk

gtg :D

byebye

Finally

FINALLY IMMA BACK ON NET! TWITTER , FACEBOOK ,TUMBLR.... WHATEVER THERE IS.. KAYKAY..

LEKLEK, SINCE WHEN I USE IMMA? OOOO..... WEIRD JUST FEEL LIKE IT. KAYKAY.. FREAKING HAPPY I CAN USE BACK MY LAPPY AND WATCH SLOD AND CHAT WITH DARINA AND YANIE. BUT MOSTLY WITH DARINA! MUAHAHAHA!

KAY WILL DO A PROPER POST SOON :D

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows (:

i kept thinking about you more instead because i cant see you anymore ....

OMG WAS HARRY POTTER GREAT AND FREAKING SURPRISING THE BEST HARRY POTTER OF THE WHOLE THING! I LOVE IT! AND LOVE IT LOTSLOTSLOTS!!

like it was just freakinggood the best one yet but part 2 havent yet out yet wait till next year june. yeah i know.. need wait for school june holidays. pfft!!! but i wanna watch it again pleaseeee... who wanna watch with me? sis watching with her friends again >.<

tsktsk....

like throughout the movie, it was cold but i got nothing to cover me . all of us , darina, me and yanie was like sitting like comfortably and coldly at the freaking back. yeah, we were last row of the last and at the freaking corner of the cinema, then the movie like started 15 mins after the freaking slow cfs. tsktsk.... like epic moments were evolved. Like i can freakingly remmeber and wont forget! is darina gasped. here is what happened,

i heard the person said draco then i was like isnt that malfoy . then i tapped non-stop on darina's shoulder then after that she look at the screen and gasped freaking loudly! like the cinema was silent but except her gasped! was EPIC! hahahaha! then there was one part we thought ron was the old lady :D

then malfoy part was like only less then 40 secs throughout the whole movie ?!?!?! i know part 2 should have quite a lot more parts of him because there is a battle among the evil and good ~ muahahahaha!

i seriously love this movie and seriously who want watch with me again? hehehehe^^ some parts were suspense and some parts were tearful , some parts was just shocking and make me and darina jumped abit. like how i screamed when voldemort suddenly appeared on the screen out of nowaday... -shivers- then got one scene was tearful and while watching i heard darina at the side sniffing becos she cried ... yeah it was very sad ... and pitiful... like seriously.... stupid bellatrix! rughhhhh!!!

kay la...... anything just go darina;s blog because even though she yet post but i think she will soon. hehehe.

kk

byebye~

:D

i'm the worst friend ever :(

seriously T_Tseriously T_T

I wish that when I wake up you're there

dreams can never be reality no matter how much i want them to be ...

yeap! and i tell you darina's dream is freakingly can be related to sweet dreams by beyonce . no joke like seriously. every part of the lyrics(: how cool is that? for a dream being related in everyway in a song? hehehe^^ meeting her soon dont know when but soon for the singapore flyer . yeapyeap.. hehehe^^ want know how we got it go twinn's blog :D

Meeting yanie monday (: i wanna watch my Harry Potter. omg i have to watch it. sis watched it already and darina is going watch it tomorrow. omg seriously i need to WATCH IT ! but maybe darina following.... hahaha! well the more people the more fun.. confirm more money going out from my pocket this monday :D

btw, ss3 tickets are eing sold as we speak but never mind because i know i will get to see them one day not by this supershow3 but by other events maybe..... hehehehe^^ duh~ probably with twinn.. major duhness.. hahahahaha!

and , no dramas this week .. B.O.R.I.N.G ! but yanie is online nowadays ever since her lappy is fixed (: and darina normally chat with me via comments nowadays. hehehehe^^

and i need a new dp for my facebook. maybe take pictures soon :D and tmr sleeping over at aunts house because the day after tmr is the engagement day for my cousin and his fiancee. hehehe^^ and tmr busy day for me. hehehe^^ preparing things or either i just sit there and play com instead. muahahahaha!

okay la i gtg.

byebye

:D

i want to go out seriously ...

Why are you not going? i was hoping you would ....... :'(

it's been a freaking long time since sis brought me out to town T_T and i want go out with her!!! because going out with her , eating is free :D :D hehehe^^ and we get to go places i dont even know existed! hehehs :D and i freaking realised than whenever i drank at starbucks, i will always be wearing long sleeves shirt. hehs. kaykay, hmm.. changed plans with yanie since mom still kinda sick , i cant meet her tomorrow so plan to meet her on monday and watch my harry potter. sis says it is freaking GOOD! hahaha. and it is almost a 3hour movie :D how great is that? to sit in the cinema for that long :D muahahahaha!.....

and i want to watch my slod but the episode not out yet and waiting next week for donghae and minhyuk's drama ,yeap. i want see my minhyuk (: lol . hehehe^^ kinda bored right now and i have to finish 2 books in 2 days or 3 days before sis returned it . okay i am quarter way through the first book. yeah, good luck to me.

and i want get that ring.. freakingly need get a ring the one ring i wanted at forever 21 (: and also getting another piercing soon. soon! but dont know when . hehs.

okay la. i gtg ~

byebye!

i am feeling kinda lonely now

Seriously , You display pic, was just gorgeous. .. . . but i could only look at it to look at you now :(

Can i have the purple and gold one? mom say i can change my phone after my 18 months contract finish and apparently i have 6 months more. aigoo.... i want to change to blackberry :P hehehe^^ but i also want LG phones. i dont know but blackberry seems to be calling my name. muahaha!

Meeting Yanie soon , yeap! very happy havent talk long long chats for like how long ? very long! and i planning to meet Twinn soon too . but i dont know when. maybe next next week? or next week? idk.But hope it is soon.

Mom seems to be getting better and i havent been going elds. probably till no more elds this holidays. the lazyness in me is like overwhelming all over -.-"

Again , Late nights i sleep like at 2 plus in the morning. and also i still watching SLOD. hehe^^ darina knows that. Need wait end of this week i think for next episode .. urghhh!!!! anyone can recommend me any new dramas? I know there is Vampire Diaries but that also need wait end of the week and i know Twinn is obsess Damon.

okay then,

i'm off ~

byebye~

falling in love with kyuhyun.....

I never think about you, but you're always on my mind.

SS3 nanjing kyuhyun was just too damn cute !! and his hair is freaking becoming like super girl right ? hehe^^

and sis told me and i saw on the tv that 2AM coming at IMM for fan-signing. hahaha. should i get the album ? i never once get a signature from an idol before? worse! i want Kyuhyun! Cho Kyuhyun !!! hehs.

been quite bored lately darina is online when i am not ..... and whole afternoon she is gone ? so i kept myself kinda busy by watching shows over and over again , even went lot one get food since mom sick. aigoo , mum has been sick for quite a while now, hope she gets well soon..... really.... hopefully....

btw, money is seriously running low .... very low.... cos my part time tutoring starts maybe after my holiday to KL. yeap! going there soon during december :x hehehe^^

kaykay, got to go...

byebye~

Isnt Kyuhyun Just Hot?

Some day i know i am going to meet you even though now there is no chance of seeing you in school with the same uniform as i am T_T but we will meet if fate lets us . By then , i would have probably still waiting like fool.

hehehe^^ you all should have seen me and darina's convo on facebook about vampire diaries.. bout damon , elena and stefan . blablalah. we wrote like passages instead of short replies. but seriouly people ? who would you choose? Damon or Stefan? i could Damon for elena. he is better for her though he is consider a bad guy but hey , he is slowly changing for the sake of elena people?? right darina?

okay , meeting yanie soon on thursday i think . watching harry potter :Dmuahahaha. .. was going with darina but she had plans with dahlya to watch it. so , never mind then next time perhaps. okay , i got to go.

byebye~

i need to stop my crave for slod like seriously. hahaha. cant stop watching even though i've watch from season 1 . over and over again. but i prefer season 2 and season 3 .cos during that cole and dylan are taller and voices are deeper :D kaykay. hahaha!

byebye

looks like twinn found a job~

BOred :P hehs.going johor soon :x going to get EPOP magazine :D muahahahaha! blahblahblah... i dont even know why i am even posting. and hope slod episode it out soon! i need some cailey moments! :D kaykay. hahaha! i'm off ~ byebye

yeah right,

just went to my tumblr and when i was strolling down my posts ,

i found this.

HINT: Use the "J" and "K" keys to navigate between posts.

yeah like what letters -.-"

Cant Get Back What's Already Lost....

I do think of you but not that much nowadays, and the hurt i felt has loosen and fading ....

Agioo, And finally the nervousness was off. hehehe^^ me and Twinn got in the same class :D muahaha! But yanie was separated while that is what you get if you choose a different paths but we wont changed we will still be together alright? hehs. and i am hooked on Suite Life On Deck again. god knows why. hahaha! and been listening to sclub8 songs. hahaha. meeting darina for harry potter but she is working on weekdays. maybe asking yanie if darina cant. agiooo,,, work work work. i am working too as a part-time tutor. hehs. for my cousin, hey, i receive payment alright! hehe. okay i am off.. byebye

~

Kim heechul!

aigooo ~

i was watching supershow2 with sis then we were watching heechul's solo (soul) . like while watching, the lights of his solo was off and freakingly guess what!!!!! , he kissed one lucky girl's hand after holding it for like more than 20 seconds. FREAKINGLY kissed it!!!! like aigooo..... Freaking jealous. me and sis both shouted and screamed ! then sis wanted to torture herself and watched it again , then she was like ' why do i feel like crying even though he is not my favourite!' HAHAHAHA. but still people~ who doesnt want to be held by heechul's slender hands :D eh-eh la people~

kaykay gtg ~

Happy Birthday Twinn

I LOVE YOU TO THE FREAKING MAX !!!!!!! DARINA NHO !

i know you had heartbreaks and sufferings but hey , look on the bright side, you still have all of us. :D right? you are not alone~ hehehe^^ ohmygod i am just happy for you . and dont be sad alright? and i tiny bit dont even regret not knowing yo at all because you are my twinn and i love you for that. hahaha. and we been friends for 2 years now right? almost 2 years . hehehe^^ let's make it forever alright. and btw , i made that for you ! sorry no LEE MINHO or 'Minho' because not really my favourite hehehe.. blah!!! hahaha. and it took me like almost an hour plus to make for you that okay becos need cut here and there and need erase here and there. ahahhahaha :D :D but i love doing this stuff. muahahahaha!

HAPPY 14 BIRTHDAY DARINA NHO !!! hope you like it !!!!!! :D :D :D

and p.s posted this like half an hour earlier than you actual date of birthday . because too excited .hahaha. hope you seriously like it !!!! :D

SARANGHAE DARINA ~

aigoo, minhyuk-ah

Minhyuk-ah why so CUTE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

And you wore a freaking cardigan :D that is long , the type where it covers the hand..

mrghhhhhhhhh ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

cute ♥

hehehe^^

this is my day..

day by day i had stopped thinking about you , i dont know why. it is always a i dont know type of situation. no longer thinking of you everyday...

kwakwakwak~ hehehe^^ i had finally gotten my freaking SuperShow2 DVD people!!! hehe. it arriveed today morning i woke up adn the next thing i know there was a knock on my door and ta-da! my DVD :D:D hehehe :)

watched it straight away with sis. muahaha! kaykay... LOVE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT !!!!!!

anyway, gonna watch harry potter with Twinn :D she gonna watch a marathon she say because she doesnt really know the story line,. hahaha. kk.. good luck but i got to watch it soon. next next week going out with her. should be on thursday. becos that is the day if i am not wrong the show is out!!!! and i am freakiingly excited ttm. kaykay. that is all people...

byebye~

unrequited love........

Every girl will have that one guy who makes her blush so much when he passes her by and that is you , but It is worth smiling when you're here, because it makes my day ,

i want go paris :D :D someone bring me. hehehe. and sorry to darina that i cant go and celebrate your birthday on the day itself but one freaking day next next week i will go out with you :D i promise you and we can go watch megamind. and yanie's back :D finally! she just reach singapore at 8 ! HAHAHAHA.

and day by day i am getting lazy to even step out of the house. aigooo.... been oning com but never really go out. oh and darina seems online but i dont even know what to say to her at all . hehs. she must be chatting with atikah now~ probably. hhahaa. i go read my manga, or something uh. kay bye!

Tears are words the heart cannot say.

Aigoo, while i was alone , i kept thinking , i am starting to miss you again , even though i tried to forget you the past few days.you kept coming back in . and sometimes, i get bored like i am still crying over you while you are happier on the other side. the feelings rushed back in , but i just feel dumb to even continue this unrequited love . .....

aish , hope i wont need go back to remedial , next week . Someone's birthday coming soon . (eyebrow up and down to Darina) HAHAHAHA. i'm just bored and beast's soom kept replaying on my mind. i cant take my breath~breath~breath~ , need get a tutition soon . haha. maybe go with yanie since darina already going take lessons . T.T i will think about the place:D then next week too we getting to know what classes we get. hopefully and insyallah , i get to get in class B. i really want it!!! like seriously .kay i am off. :D hahaha!

byebye~

I hate this feeling....

i give up already T.T did i ? i dont even know :( it just sucks the whole lot!!

the whole week i am just freaking busy -.-" and i am freaking lazy and not in the mood. and going out like almost everyday . all i know the happiest thing is that by friday the ss2 dvd will probably reach :D :D hehehe^^ happy overloading. and btw, on the way back to school i saw someone . he made me smile but he's not kyu . which is weird. i saw this guy again in the bus after almost a month . and he made me smile ? what is wrong with me -.-"

aigoo~

cant believe this is goodbye,

saw you maybe for the last time yesterday , you saw me and i saw you , yet you dont even know my feelings for you and i dont even exist in your world at all , ..... :'(

today had drama . omg , my hip is like in pain i dont even know why . it hurts. and monday coming back school with darina because of maths remedial. and blahblah. today got alot of happening during music bank eh? beast and shinee goodbye stage, snsd comeback stage. :D hehe^^ and omg at jokwon who looks like budak G. seriously no joke.. right darina? kaykay . erm yesterday was my last day with my dearest 2/5. we had a long and sweet memories together didnt we? i will miss it . ALOT ! actually i will miss every single person in class. hope we wont forget each other and still keep in contact because i know i will still remember you all . ! :D

aigoo , but i still hate the feeling, that i wont be in the same class again . no more those laughters and screaming from us, no more girls giggling to each other , no more boys fighting in class, no more those moments whereby i got disturbed by prayuok with darina. no more buying stuff and staying back with yihui and weilun they all like we used to during term 3. no more singing jolee's name with oh and baby. TT.TT no more those moments. i miss it already ..... aigooo.... goodbye everyone but all i know that we will still meet in the next 2 years before we be in sec 4 and graduate from this school . i love you all ~

tomorrow got ELDS .

havent see you , someone looked like you just now but it wasnt you . where were you ?

Nothing happened much today. all i know i cant stop laughing with darina because of something. one of it was that yanie spelt joon as jooL . HAHAHA. kaykay. hmm.. what else omg at maths lesson with the anaylsis , like seriously i thought only do ours, but ended up doing like 4 more papers and i felt retarded and ache after raising my hands for almost like every questions. the person just had to fail the paper -.-" aigoo... then today went back early at 1 . haha. but tomorrow got ELDS . HAHAHA. apparently going home late tomorrow. i wonder what we are freakingly even gonna do .. anyway ending here, goodbye.. i'm off

i cant take my breath,breath

saranghae , i still do...

HAHAHAHA. went Darina's blog and woots. with the food :D like seriously i wish it was real , i would have eaten all of it non-stop . seriously . hahaha. well , it is Delicious from the look of it. kaykay. days of school is coming to an end. this year time flies really fast. the next thing i know i am heading to school as an upper sec. aigoo... :x i wish to get out of that school as soon as possible. -.- i want go NAFA . going for the open house with Darina . see how it goes. hahaha. okay goodbye goodbye....

kyu's hair

LOOK AT CHO KYUHYUN'S HAIR!!!!

IT IS GROWING AND FIRST TIME HIS FRINGE IS STRAIGHT.

HOPE IT LAST LONG. MOSTLY BY THE END OF THE YEAR THEY WILL FREAKING CURL HIS HAIR -.- !

AHHHHHHHHHHH KYUHYUN~~~~~~

ps. credits to owner :D

i wish you like me

aigoo , i seriously wish i get rid of these feeligns fast :(

HAHAHA. decided with Darina not going to SS3 and decided to go and shopshopshop with that money instead and for Sj , we gonna stalk them of course.. hehe. who knows they will be shopping at orchard :D hehe. and i can catch a glimpse of Kyuhyun <3>.< hmm.. people who went kpop night must be like in cloud nine now dont they T.T aishaishaish.. kk. but still .... anyway now waiting for miss darina to online to chat. kkk. byebye

i feel like letting go

i feel like letting go. i dont know part of me says , i am getting along fine with this goodbye but a part of me says that i miss him so freaking much. But when i dont get to see him , my mind will start wonder where he is and search for him but when he is near and i get to see him , my heart is not hurting anymore. my heart doesnt beat as fast? or am i just lying to myself in order to forget him ?

AIGOOO!!! how CUTE CAN MINHYUK BE :D :D hehehe^^ and ahhhhh~~ hehehe. Okayokay. currently not alot of money with me now in my piggy bank and how go ss3? u tell me. urghh.. it's okay actually if i dont go , but i do want see them, if i cant see them , then i have to force myself to really chase them with a van or something.i have to see kyuhyun <3 MUAHAHA. kk.. erm , watched playful kiss. eh-eh la eh. kk. hahaha. erm i dont even know what to say anymore. bored? darina not online i guess? haha. and i am currently waiting till mom finish cooking so i can eat. i think i am gaining weight. HAHA. well, i'm off then. bye

if only it was that simple

if only i was that smart and that freaking hardworking :(

Now i know , i must work even harder than before. i have to put aside kpop but it is so hard to freaking resist. what can i do? i need to occupy myself with school instead of watching or looking through kpop stuff in the internet everyday . the results show that i had wasted my time even though i had studied hard ! i did. i spent 3 days on science . but no . it didnt help. :( aigoo... I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF ! now i need go tuition , maybe going with yanie .haha. since darina want go back to her tuition with dahlya .hehe. hmphs. which tuition should i even go ? never mind ~ now all i need do is go back to sleep :P and figure out what am i going to do in my future !

one word,

Disappointed :(

My results are just freaking Sucky :(

Hope i do pass everything :D

hopefully and pray ..

too late...

I sometimes have the feelings that i miss you because you are no longer around to see at school and sometimes the feeling that it is better you are gone at least i wont have the feeling of pain from watching at a distance. but i just dont know the feeling i am feeling now :(

hehe^^ today was such a hilarious day with sis. omg i cant stop laughing with her. kaykay. i have a room to myself now. i moved from being with sis room for the rest of the 7 years. HAHAHA. cant believe tomorrow going to get exams papers. like freaking fast and i am feeling extremely nervous ttm. :( hope i pass everything especially english since if i fail , i will just drop T.T and i aint gonna drop . Hopefully :D kay , now just waiting for miss darina to be online since she hasnt. bored bored. maybe going to watch videos to keep me busy from waiting .hahaha. kk. bye~

i cant believe this is goodbye..

i cant believe you are gone. no longer the guy i wanted to see most in school . no longer able to see your face any longer. you're gone. now i really hate the word goodbye . even though you hurt me , even though you broke my heart many times without knowing. i still love you . but now , there is no one for me to love anymore. the guy had already left. without saying goodbye to me , he just left. without turning back to see whether i was there. because i know in his eyes i am just another girl in school who has nothing to do in his life. but deep inside, i am the girl who will cry whenever i see a picture of him with someone , or even make my heart beat so fast whenever he's near. it is so wonderful the feeling . i will never forget but i want that feeling to stay forever in me. :'( i guess, my love for you the past months are just wasted but something in me says that i dont regret loving you . because , you are the first guy ever to broke my heart, make me fall in love deeper,the guy whom i cried for, the person who made my heart beat like crazy and lastly , you are first guy who left me without me able to confess my love to you.

what to do ? this is my fate. but i hope fate let us meet one day because i know i will miss you so much . and dying to see your face once again :( i was out just now , hoping to see you , there was so many upper secs in lot one but maybe it was just my luck i guess. i thought i saw you but it was different person.. :'( whoa, i open facebook , and there , your face :'(

i'm just tired ... of all this ...

i'm just tired of all this. you already left. i didnt even say goodbye . you were so near yet we were so far. i didnt even went up to you and say goodbye. i just stood there but i didnt even look at you. i know when i look at you , this heart of mine will just start hurting and it will start to swell .because of you , i dont know how many times my heart had gotten swollen . you were just there right in front my eye for the last time but i didnt even do anything . i just let you leave without any goodbye. if i were given a chance to hug you , i would. i definitely would. if only i could be in your arms? :( sadly it is just my imagination .so this is it then. no more anticipation to see you and no more heart beating like it is gonna explode. no more that smile i always get to see whenever you talk to your friend. it is all gone now isnt it? i just have to accept it. but promise me one thing even though you dont even know i existed , that you will come back and let me see you again. because oppa , Saranghae....

so i was given a chance to see him for the last time today . even though we were near , i was so far to even say anything. i wasnt even given a chance to say goodbye because i know , i will just be a pathetic person saying that to him as a stranger as him and i are strangers.... Well , no more ______ in my life. anymore... i am freaking in love with you . urghhh.... :X :x :x anyway, went lot one with yanie and darina, had fun and alot of laughters at least it stop me from thinking what is actually happening in my mind. it sort of let me be in peace for a while like as though it didnt happened. like all this wouldnt happened. it was all a dream and i would wake up and things will just be back like it used to be. but too bad , this is reality and this is my fate. :( i have to accept it right?

will fate bring us together?

will i see you again ?

lies and more lies ,

Great days are decreasing and now i am left with a day and a few hours left. you're leaving and it is making feeling more hurt because i know i will have to depend on luck to get to see you again once you leave this school. no more seeing that smile of yours , no more hearing your voice , no more having that nervous feeling when you are near, cant i like hug you and say i love you to you before you leave? :'(

i saw him finally , again , and and again . i saw you alot today. which makes me miss you even more when you leave , urgh. i hate this feeling alot. must you leave? must you live so far when i can only hope of seeing you is so little? :( Omg , i feel like crying . i seriously feel like hugging him right now. aish , anyway, went lot one with darina and yanie today :D hehe. talk talk talk then bought badges hehe. finally i have kyu's name :D muahahaha. darina bought hyukjae and yanie obviously bought Kikwang :D den saw someone , darina started to smile retardly, walk walk to someone's block , den yanie went meet someone, den me and darina was laughing damn badly , omg i can still repeat that moment. it was freaking hilarious. i still remember when i thought i drop the eggs and i freaking screamed then we started laughing. then me and darina talked about someone. and started smiling blahblah.. kaykay. i'm off. goodbye:D

i wish you knew it sometimes,

i just realised i'm left with 2 days . i didnt get to see you today but what about tomorrow ? i'm left with tomorrow and thursday then can i at least hug you goodbye ? or hold your hand or even say goodbye ? Can i see you ever again once you leave this school ? i know if it is fate , fate will let us meet right? if we are not fated to meet then i guess i just have to wish i do get to see you . even so , i will miss you and you should know that i love you , you hurt me again and again unknowingly but i still continue to love you even though at times i told myself to forget you but you are just to hard for me to just erase completely . urgh . i hate the word goodbye from now on because it will remind me of the day you left and the day i will last see you . I love you freaking much.

finally a day with the eh-ehs today :D went ate kfc breakfast with them and had a freaking happy time with them while chatting about stuff :D muahaha. we have to do it , i cant just let it go pass by that easily right? more over , i have my friends :D hehe^^ that was all i need.. And i finished episode 12 ! finally people . Playful kiss i have reached your 12th episode (: can i seriously be that girl ? and ______ be that guy ? O.o hehehe. before my mind get crazy . seriously i love the show even though the ratings for the show isnt high. but still i watched it. like hate Haera ttm ! urghh.. she is just getting in the way ! NO JOKE ! kaykay better off this post . kay . good night world. have a great dream . a good dream is always a nice memory to think about :) okay i'm off ...

you dont realised it till now

IT IS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE EH-EHS chatted together :D

LOVE THEM TTM!!! HEHEHEHEHE <3

DARINA YANIE NISA <3>

they are always there for me

just like me for them :D what are friends for...

but there is someone whom i wont forget ever ,

is you...

if you understand.. (You Will Never Know Me even when you're leaving)

I saw you , my heart skipped a beat. it is always the usual thingy . with the heartbeat and the usual smiling and blushing moment. Cant you see it? how i feel for you ? that is real ? :( you will never know and i will never get to tell you my feelings once you leave. what is with the freaking days decreasing till is a single number which is last then 5 ? i wanted to be with you and always will . but hey , i dont even exist in your world. :'( it is is painful enough , i feel it alone but cant you at least know me? my feelings for you ? :'( even if you are leaving i know a part of my heart wont forget you and will still love you ...

today had study partner with yanie. hahahaha. was fun and hilarious. blahblah.. lazy uh wanna type it out. hahaha. like was doing our hair for like half an hour. like it is always either darina or yanie who will do my fringe. hahaha. :D like yanie was like pulling more and more hair from the corner till it became almost like i have full fringe in front. hahahaha. kaykay ... then the rest was history. sorry uh lazy wanna type but darina! aish should have come she cant. if she could she would already be there. aish . if not can freaking heart to heart talk with the three of us there. and one thing yanie got disappointed her kikwang's badge people had bought it. hahahaha. kk.. then he teehee was there and i ask her go but she was like blushing and smiling retardedly . hahaha.kk

gonna wait for darina to online now:D bye

sometimes, things are not meant to be . Right?

i love my twinn , dear , idk what is nisa though :'( never mind. but something about it bothers me much, someone must be there to listen to my worries and tears. but who? my twinn? my dear? nisa?

T.T well if you realised something is missing in my post you better know, i am refering to you , yes you.

i dont like you . i'm sorry . very sorry . but you are just not my type of person to hang around with.

dont you realised you are just freaking breaking all of us again without knowing and worse , it is you who was the

one who said i will try but hey , it is you all along too .

freak uh .

haishh..

i dont know what to do now.

i'm just confused.

had a h2h talk with yanie ,

i wanted to do with darina but she wasnt available maybe tomorrow i guess?

all three of us is gonna have a h2h talk i guess.

yeah we should.

kay , i'm off..

Goodbye forever after next week .

You Will Never Appear In School Again After Next Week and The Year

picture from Darina's camera. hehehe^^ yeapyeap. Remember seeing hankyung that day :D yeap. right in front of my freaking eye!

Today had First ever in my year of sec 2 EOY paper. GOD! like seriously that fast?

kay whatever. Seriously , i was like seriously . kay btw ,

Saw people today with Darina :D hehehe. like first it was during morning assembly then hehehe.. recess and Darina was like smiling retardedly . covering and drinking her drink . like seriously saw him twice today :) how much happier can i get?

bored. and tomorrow having lunch with sis and mom and lot one. hehe^^ so cant go and study with Darina tomorrow :'( sorry darina.

btw , hahaha.

how much cuter can you get ? and melting my heart once more?

:D

okay i'm off people~

should i really try smiling with teeth ? :P

try later on ..

bye~

sighs

i dont like talking about my past relationship because it reminds me of how my mom scolded me like she never did before.

that is why i dont like talking about it. i remember even not being able to go home

hope you understand. it is not like i dont like admitting the fact i did what i did. it is just reminds me of what happened between me and my family.

i just hate the freaking period of that time

do understand. it wasnt a plesant one to think about and remember.

wouldnt risk my love even just one night,

God my camera for my phone megapixels sucks . hahaha. but anyway , Today studied alone.

Since my twinn went and studied at macs. hahaha! i learnt like 2-3 chapters of Science today .

and i finally understood the chapter :D muahaha! -claps-

Bored . Currently chatting with Twinn . haha! what should i do currently? i am updating this blog?

and thanks for tagging? hehs. and hating someone to extreme point whereby i havent even hate someone

that much . like i tried being nice to you and this is what you did to me in the end?

well , i think it is just pintu's nature. haha. like a freaking snake :D hehehe. like twist here and there.

Tomorrow , will have to see her again , and have to freaking see her the next upcoming years.

and Budak Tinggi finally accepted thanks to yanie for her luck :D and it did work ! without wishing

for 11:11 . hehehe.. :D finally after waiting for like 2-3 days. ? he finally accepted friends request.

kay , i should end it here. wanna continue my chat :D bye~