i feel like letting go

i feel like letting go. i dont know part of me says , i am getting along fine with this goodbye but a part of me says that i miss him so freaking much. But when i dont get to see him , my mind will start wonder where he is and search for him but when he is near and i get to see him , my heart is not hurting anymore. my heart doesnt beat as fast? or am i just lying to myself in order to forget him ?

AIGOOO!!! how CUTE CAN MINHYUK BE :D :D hehehe^^ and ahhhhh~~ hehehe. Okayokay. currently not alot of money with me now in my piggy bank and how go ss3? u tell me. urghh.. it's okay actually if i dont go , but i do want see them, if i cant see them , then i have to force myself to really chase them with a van or something.i have to see kyuhyun <3 MUAHAHA. kk.. erm , watched playful kiss. eh-eh la eh. kk. hahaha. erm i dont even know what to say anymore. bored? darina not online i guess? haha. and i am currently waiting till mom finish cooking so i can eat. i think i am gaining weight. HAHA. well, i'm off then. bye