cant believe this is goodbye,

saw you maybe for the last time yesterday , you saw me and i saw you , yet you dont even know my feelings for you and i dont even exist in your world at all , ..... :'(

today had drama . omg , my hip is like in pain i dont even know why . it hurts. and monday coming back school with darina because of maths remedial. and blahblah. today got alot of happening during music bank eh? beast and shinee goodbye stage, snsd comeback stage. :D hehe^^ and omg at jokwon who looks like budak G. seriously no joke.. right darina? kaykay . erm yesterday was my last day with my dearest 2/5. we had a long and sweet memories together didnt we? i will miss it . ALOT ! actually i will miss every single person in class. hope we wont forget each other and still keep in contact because i know i will still remember you all . ! :D

aigoo , but i still hate the feeling, that i wont be in the same class again . no more those laughters and screaming from us, no more girls giggling to each other , no more boys fighting in class, no more those moments whereby i got disturbed by prayuok with darina. no more buying stuff and staying back with yihui and weilun they all like we used to during term 3. no more singing jolee's name with oh and baby. TT.TT no more those moments. i miss it already ..... aigooo.... goodbye everyone but all i know that we will still meet in the next 2 years before we be in sec 4 and graduate from this school . i love you all ~

tomorrow got ELDS .

havent see you , someone looked like you just now but it wasnt you . where were you ?

Nothing happened much today. all i know i cant stop laughing with darina because of something. one of it was that yanie spelt joon as jooL . HAHAHA. kaykay. hmm.. what else omg at maths lesson with the anaylsis , like seriously i thought only do ours, but ended up doing like 4 more papers and i felt retarded and ache after raising my hands for almost like every questions. the person just had to fail the paper -.-" aigoo... then today went back early at 1 . haha. but tomorrow got ELDS . HAHAHA. apparently going home late tomorrow. i wonder what we are freakingly even gonna do .. anyway ending here, goodbye.. i'm off

i cant take my breath,breath

saranghae , i still do...

HAHAHAHA. went Darina's blog and woots. with the food :D like seriously i wish it was real , i would have eaten all of it non-stop . seriously . hahaha. well , it is Delicious from the look of it. kaykay. days of school is coming to an end. this year time flies really fast. the next thing i know i am heading to school as an upper sec. aigoo... :x i wish to get out of that school as soon as possible. -.- i want go NAFA . going for the open house with Darina . see how it goes. hahaha. okay goodbye goodbye....

kyu's hair

LOOK AT CHO KYUHYUN'S HAIR!!!!

IT IS GROWING AND FIRST TIME HIS FRINGE IS STRAIGHT.

HOPE IT LAST LONG. MOSTLY BY THE END OF THE YEAR THEY WILL FREAKING CURL HIS HAIR -.- !

AHHHHHHHHHHH KYUHYUN~~~~~~

ps. credits to owner :D

i wish you like me

aigoo , i seriously wish i get rid of these feeligns fast :(

HAHAHA. decided with Darina not going to SS3 and decided to go and shopshopshop with that money instead and for Sj , we gonna stalk them of course.. hehe. who knows they will be shopping at orchard :D hehe. and i can catch a glimpse of Kyuhyun <3>.< hmm.. people who went kpop night must be like in cloud nine now dont they T.T aishaishaish.. kk. but still .... anyway now waiting for miss darina to online to chat. kkk. byebye

i feel like letting go

i feel like letting go. i dont know part of me says , i am getting along fine with this goodbye but a part of me says that i miss him so freaking much. But when i dont get to see him , my mind will start wonder where he is and search for him but when he is near and i get to see him , my heart is not hurting anymore. my heart doesnt beat as fast? or am i just lying to myself in order to forget him ?

AIGOOO!!! how CUTE CAN MINHYUK BE :D :D hehehe^^ and ahhhhh~~ hehehe. Okayokay. currently not alot of money with me now in my piggy bank and how go ss3? u tell me. urghh.. it's okay actually if i dont go , but i do want see them, if i cant see them , then i have to force myself to really chase them with a van or something.i have to see kyuhyun <3 MUAHAHA. kk.. erm , watched playful kiss. eh-eh la eh. kk. hahaha. erm i dont even know what to say anymore. bored? darina not online i guess? haha. and i am currently waiting till mom finish cooking so i can eat. i think i am gaining weight. HAHA. well, i'm off then. bye

if only it was that simple

if only i was that smart and that freaking hardworking :(

Now i know , i must work even harder than before. i have to put aside kpop but it is so hard to freaking resist. what can i do? i need to occupy myself with school instead of watching or looking through kpop stuff in the internet everyday . the results show that i had wasted my time even though i had studied hard ! i did. i spent 3 days on science . but no . it didnt help. :( aigoo... I HAVE TO FORCE MYSELF ! now i need go tuition , maybe going with yanie .haha. since darina want go back to her tuition with dahlya .hehe. hmphs. which tuition should i even go ? never mind ~ now all i need do is go back to sleep :P and figure out what am i going to do in my future !

one word,

Disappointed :(

My results are just freaking Sucky :(

Hope i do pass everything :D

hopefully and pray ..

too late...

I sometimes have the feelings that i miss you because you are no longer around to see at school and sometimes the feeling that it is better you are gone at least i wont have the feeling of pain from watching at a distance. but i just dont know the feeling i am feeling now :(

hehe^^ today was such a hilarious day with sis. omg i cant stop laughing with her. kaykay. i have a room to myself now. i moved from being with sis room for the rest of the 7 years. HAHAHA. cant believe tomorrow going to get exams papers. like freaking fast and i am feeling extremely nervous ttm. :( hope i pass everything especially english since if i fail , i will just drop T.T and i aint gonna drop . Hopefully :D kay , now just waiting for miss darina to be online since she hasnt. bored bored. maybe going to watch videos to keep me busy from waiting .hahaha. kk. bye~

i cant believe this is goodbye..

i cant believe you are gone. no longer the guy i wanted to see most in school . no longer able to see your face any longer. you're gone. now i really hate the word goodbye . even though you hurt me , even though you broke my heart many times without knowing. i still love you . but now , there is no one for me to love anymore. the guy had already left. without saying goodbye to me , he just left. without turning back to see whether i was there. because i know in his eyes i am just another girl in school who has nothing to do in his life. but deep inside, i am the girl who will cry whenever i see a picture of him with someone , or even make my heart beat so fast whenever he's near. it is so wonderful the feeling . i will never forget but i want that feeling to stay forever in me. :'( i guess, my love for you the past months are just wasted but something in me says that i dont regret loving you . because , you are the first guy ever to broke my heart, make me fall in love deeper,the guy whom i cried for, the person who made my heart beat like crazy and lastly , you are first guy who left me without me able to confess my love to you.

what to do ? this is my fate. but i hope fate let us meet one day because i know i will miss you so much . and dying to see your face once again :( i was out just now , hoping to see you , there was so many upper secs in lot one but maybe it was just my luck i guess. i thought i saw you but it was different person.. :'( whoa, i open facebook , and there , your face :'(

i'm just tired ... of all this ...

i'm just tired of all this. you already left. i didnt even say goodbye . you were so near yet we were so far. i didnt even went up to you and say goodbye. i just stood there but i didnt even look at you. i know when i look at you , this heart of mine will just start hurting and it will start to swell .because of you , i dont know how many times my heart had gotten swollen . you were just there right in front my eye for the last time but i didnt even do anything . i just let you leave without any goodbye. if i were given a chance to hug you , i would. i definitely would. if only i could be in your arms? :( sadly it is just my imagination .so this is it then. no more anticipation to see you and no more heart beating like it is gonna explode. no more that smile i always get to see whenever you talk to your friend. it is all gone now isnt it? i just have to accept it. but promise me one thing even though you dont even know i existed , that you will come back and let me see you again. because oppa , Saranghae....

so i was given a chance to see him for the last time today . even though we were near , i was so far to even say anything. i wasnt even given a chance to say goodbye because i know , i will just be a pathetic person saying that to him as a stranger as him and i are strangers.... Well , no more ______ in my life. anymore... i am freaking in love with you . urghhh.... :X :x :x anyway, went lot one with yanie and darina, had fun and alot of laughters at least it stop me from thinking what is actually happening in my mind. it sort of let me be in peace for a while like as though it didnt happened. like all this wouldnt happened. it was all a dream and i would wake up and things will just be back like it used to be. but too bad , this is reality and this is my fate. :( i have to accept it right?

will fate bring us together?

will i see you again ?

lies and more lies ,

Great days are decreasing and now i am left with a day and a few hours left. you're leaving and it is making feeling more hurt because i know i will have to depend on luck to get to see you again once you leave this school. no more seeing that smile of yours , no more hearing your voice , no more having that nervous feeling when you are near, cant i like hug you and say i love you to you before you leave? :'(

i saw him finally , again , and and again . i saw you alot today. which makes me miss you even more when you leave , urgh. i hate this feeling alot. must you leave? must you live so far when i can only hope of seeing you is so little? :( Omg , i feel like crying . i seriously feel like hugging him right now. aish , anyway, went lot one with darina and yanie today :D hehe. talk talk talk then bought badges hehe. finally i have kyu's name :D muahahaha. darina bought hyukjae and yanie obviously bought Kikwang :D den saw someone , darina started to smile retardly, walk walk to someone's block , den yanie went meet someone, den me and darina was laughing damn badly , omg i can still repeat that moment. it was freaking hilarious. i still remember when i thought i drop the eggs and i freaking screamed then we started laughing. then me and darina talked about someone. and started smiling blahblah.. kaykay. i'm off. goodbye:D

i wish you knew it sometimes,

i just realised i'm left with 2 days . i didnt get to see you today but what about tomorrow ? i'm left with tomorrow and thursday then can i at least hug you goodbye ? or hold your hand or even say goodbye ? Can i see you ever again once you leave this school ? i know if it is fate , fate will let us meet right? if we are not fated to meet then i guess i just have to wish i do get to see you . even so , i will miss you and you should know that i love you , you hurt me again and again unknowingly but i still continue to love you even though at times i told myself to forget you but you are just to hard for me to just erase completely . urgh . i hate the word goodbye from now on because it will remind me of the day you left and the day i will last see you . I love you freaking much.

finally a day with the eh-ehs today :D went ate kfc breakfast with them and had a freaking happy time with them while chatting about stuff :D muahaha. we have to do it , i cant just let it go pass by that easily right? more over , i have my friends :D hehe^^ that was all i need.. And i finished episode 12 ! finally people . Playful kiss i have reached your 12th episode (: can i seriously be that girl ? and ______ be that guy ? O.o hehehe. before my mind get crazy . seriously i love the show even though the ratings for the show isnt high. but still i watched it. like hate Haera ttm ! urghh.. she is just getting in the way ! NO JOKE ! kaykay better off this post . kay . good night world. have a great dream . a good dream is always a nice memory to think about :) okay i'm off ...

you dont realised it till now

IT IS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE EH-EHS chatted together :D

LOVE THEM TTM!!! HEHEHEHEHE <3

DARINA YANIE NISA <3>

they are always there for me

just like me for them :D what are friends for...

but there is someone whom i wont forget ever ,

is you...

if you understand.. (You Will Never Know Me even when you're leaving)

I saw you , my heart skipped a beat. it is always the usual thingy . with the heartbeat and the usual smiling and blushing moment. Cant you see it? how i feel for you ? that is real ? :( you will never know and i will never get to tell you my feelings once you leave. what is with the freaking days decreasing till is a single number which is last then 5 ? i wanted to be with you and always will . but hey , i dont even exist in your world. :'( it is is painful enough , i feel it alone but cant you at least know me? my feelings for you ? :'( even if you are leaving i know a part of my heart wont forget you and will still love you ...

today had study partner with yanie. hahahaha. was fun and hilarious. blahblah.. lazy uh wanna type it out. hahaha. like was doing our hair for like half an hour. like it is always either darina or yanie who will do my fringe. hahaha. :D like yanie was like pulling more and more hair from the corner till it became almost like i have full fringe in front. hahahaha. kaykay ... then the rest was history. sorry uh lazy wanna type but darina! aish should have come she cant. if she could she would already be there. aish . if not can freaking heart to heart talk with the three of us there. and one thing yanie got disappointed her kikwang's badge people had bought it. hahahaha. kk.. then he teehee was there and i ask her go but she was like blushing and smiling retardedly . hahaha.kk

gonna wait for darina to online now:D bye

sometimes, things are not meant to be . Right?

i love my twinn , dear , idk what is nisa though :'( never mind. but something about it bothers me much, someone must be there to listen to my worries and tears. but who? my twinn? my dear? nisa?

T.T well if you realised something is missing in my post you better know, i am refering to you , yes you.

i dont like you . i'm sorry . very sorry . but you are just not my type of person to hang around with.

dont you realised you are just freaking breaking all of us again without knowing and worse , it is you who was the

one who said i will try but hey , it is you all along too .

freak uh .

haishh..

i dont know what to do now.

i'm just confused.

had a h2h talk with yanie ,

i wanted to do with darina but she wasnt available maybe tomorrow i guess?

all three of us is gonna have a h2h talk i guess.

yeah we should.

kay , i'm off..

Goodbye forever after next week .

You Will Never Appear In School Again After Next Week and The Year

picture from Darina's camera. hehehe^^ yeapyeap. Remember seeing hankyung that day :D yeap. right in front of my freaking eye!

Today had First ever in my year of sec 2 EOY paper. GOD! like seriously that fast?

kay whatever. Seriously , i was like seriously . kay btw ,

Saw people today with Darina :D hehehe. like first it was during morning assembly then hehehe.. recess and Darina was like smiling retardedly . covering and drinking her drink . like seriously saw him twice today :) how much happier can i get?

bored. and tomorrow having lunch with sis and mom and lot one. hehe^^ so cant go and study with Darina tomorrow :'( sorry darina.

btw , hahaha.

how much cuter can you get ? and melting my heart once more?

:D

okay i'm off people~

should i really try smiling with teeth ? :P

try later on ..

bye~

sighs

i dont like talking about my past relationship because it reminds me of how my mom scolded me like she never did before.

that is why i dont like talking about it. i remember even not being able to go home

hope you understand. it is not like i dont like admitting the fact i did what i did. it is just reminds me of what happened between me and my family.

i just hate the freaking period of that time

do understand. it wasnt a plesant one to think about and remember.

wouldnt risk my love even just one night,

God my camera for my phone megapixels sucks . hahaha. but anyway , Today studied alone.

Since my twinn went and studied at macs. hahaha! i learnt like 2-3 chapters of Science today .

and i finally understood the chapter :D muahaha! -claps-

Bored . Currently chatting with Twinn . haha! what should i do currently? i am updating this blog?

and thanks for tagging? hehs. and hating someone to extreme point whereby i havent even hate someone

that much . like i tried being nice to you and this is what you did to me in the end?

well , i think it is just pintu's nature. haha. like a freaking snake :D hehehe. like twist here and there.

Tomorrow , will have to see her again , and have to freaking see her the next upcoming years.

and Budak Tinggi finally accepted thanks to yanie for her luck :D and it did work ! without wishing

for 11:11 . hehehe.. :D finally after waiting for like 2-3 days. ? he finally accepted friends request.

kay , i should end it here. wanna continue my chat :D bye~

I saw Hankyung today with twinn

OMG uh like we get to see Hankyung Today ? like seriously we managed to see him . like freaking near :D like no joke type of situation seriously . he was just there :D muahahaha. Darina was practically screaming and grabbing me like no one business . hahaha! well , that is DARINA NHO !!

like omg he is freakingly Tall . Duh what do u expect for someone taller than 180cm ? :D

Like we managed to study for like an hour then we went up to fifth level and there it goes , we thought it will be like SHINee where we just standing pathetically behind the sliding doors , but no , we got in like FREE . YEAH FREE! So me and Darina went like at this corner where everything was clear ! and there he was HANGKYUNG PEOPLE!! like in front of our eyes :D

okay. that is all uh . Btw, brought friendship band with Darina and it is blue ~
yeah , that is how much we have eaten :D Hungry people~ and we ate in clean :D muahahaha... nyahaha..
yeah imagining , someone wearing it . Hot ! like duh _____ wearing it is just nice with ankle pants :D muahaha.

i know it is just _____ but still ? XD

BTW FANCAM IS AT DARINA'S BLOG :D

You Let Me Know..

i didnt see you yet again . Where were you ? i kept seeing the wrong person all the time. You seems to disappear out of my life. Cant i see for just once ? What if you leaving and i am not there to see that?
I want to se you so much and i Miss you . But you are gone . Cant i see one last time before i have no more chance of seeing your face :'(