even if didnt go i cant see you , cos you're not even there

even if i did or didnt go , i know i wont be seeing you cos you're not even coming

even if i dont see you now, i know one day i
see you .. and i will the happiest person on Earth ..
because you are my first ever celeb crush <3<3>

first thing first..

me and Darina decided that we are not going airport cos we noe what

kind of situation we are gonna face if we are goin there.. some people are

even overnighting there for the sake of seeing SJ .. so confirm by the time me

and Darina reach there , there will be many people already .. so we are not gonna

hurt ourselves like the one with SHINee .. Fans were crazy ! me and Darina were both

pushed like as though they were blind that they cant even see us !

and people even bought the phone just for tickets to SJ showcase .. people even willing

to pay up to 800 dollars.. like are freaking kidding me type of situation ?

like i dont even have the feeling of excitement on coming to airport

no offence but you all who bought it are damn dumb.. you could use that money and

go korea and can see SJ up close at music bank ETC..

like wth? i wont even pay sak even if i am rich !~!

anyway ,

ending this..

i found out something today that ...

GIRL , no need to show off your love for SJ ..

besides you are a new FAN! NEW!!! N.E.W .. dont need to show off to the rest

like you know them for a very long time...

hey , i think you are the type of person who just like a particular band who is

coming here for a show.. i think on June something whereby u-kiss and beast is

coming you will forget about your dear hyukjae, ryeowook and kyuhyun and focus

more on the bands that is coming here.. like what the f?

aish.. this is damn childish...

-/-" neh mind.. .heck care her uh...

anyway ,

meeting Twinn soon~

cant wait..

byebye~

someone told me this ....

someone told me this ..

should i even believe what this person said ?

that i should tell him how i feel for him ?

the person told me that maybe that person , will like me back ...

that if i dont tell him now , i will regret later..

but i know that HE will never like me .. a girl like me ..

who will want me ? look at me .....

"one shouldnt stay quiet , one should tell how she feels before it is too late"

but i know this is all a lie and so untrue...

even if i tell him how i feel , maybe he will like say he hate me or

even worse think i am some freako who has no life or worse

still he will laugh at me and there goes my dream of HIM

liking me much less loving me .... i will just humiliate myself in front of him..

this person here who told me is just pure luck that the girl he liked

liked him back but he never told her and she never knew about it

and that is why this person told me it was all too late...

to me , this is all just a dream i cant go true to achieve it ...

it will always remain a dream and dream normally dont come true..

this dream of mine will forever stay as it is...

....

...

..

.

a dream i couldnt have ... was you ...

and it hurts...

should i really just get on with my life now ?

should i really just move on with my life and what is ahead of me ?

can i really do that ? like let it all go and forget about you completely ?

what if my heart still doesnt allow me to do it yet or forever ? maybe i could

and maybe that one day when i meet someone who loves me , i will be able

to forget you but not everything.. i will never forget your smile ......

.........................................................................................................................

nth special today happened .....

i thought maybe just maybe we are gonna meet by chance but that

was just my wishful thinking and i know that is never gonna happened..

went lot one today , and was eating well i was basically at the edge of

sleeping listening to my anutie talk .. so i was almost gonna doze off wen i

realised that beside me was an OMG SITUATION !!!! like are u kidding me

people ? imagine you like gonna sleep and it is like unglam and this guy

just had to sit beside you ?? eh-eh .. that i straighten up my body ,

like as if nothing had happened... well that basically just it what was interesting...

and found out Dahlya likes kyu too .. AWWW MY KYU <3<3<3>

haishh... more fans means he is popular but sometimes, you have this feeling,

darina you should know this feeling...

dunno whether this wednesday i can meet darina <3<3>

so , den i did went in cotton on cashless with sis when suddenly i saw someone..

and guess what , that minho look a like guy just had to be there uh beside me !

aish,,, looking at him reminds me of minho and reminding of minho leads me to kyu..

like we just had to eye contact uh ... AISH !! pissed so i went out with sis...

so basically that is all .. uh ... lazy uh want to type...byebye

I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place

will you ever disappear from my broken heart ?

why is it that every guy i see now resembles you ?

it scares me , i thought i was just imagining things ..

did i love you so much that such things are happening?

why is it that after all this , you just had to appear ?

my heart kept beating so fast when i thought it was you ..

a few months ago , it wasnt like this at all ...

a few months ago when i finally decided to leave you and

forget all the past , i could easily forget you without any second thoughts..

why out of all people it must be you who break my heart ?

Without a word you made me know love , Without a word you gave me love

but why this love is only felt by me and broken by you ?

i hate one sided love , it makes me afraid to ever love someone again because

i am afraid if i love someone so truly , i will get so much hurt and pain and

that person whom i love will not love me back ... Love is hurting me again

and Love is making me cry again because of you ...

"should i love in my dreams

as i cry and cry again

and fall asleep in tears

it's always the same after I wake up"

no matter how hard i tried , when i wake up it always the same ,

the hurt and the suffering .. what is worse , i am suffering alone in

this world.. no one knows .. no one cares .. why cant you feel the

same way as me ? and be the girl whom you could tell your friends

"she's the one i love" ..

or even hear you say .. "i will protect you ?"

it is all just my little imagination and it will never come true..

people say to me that someday a guy will love me and care for me..

and would not let a tear drop from my face but will it ever come true?

how i wish i was in a fairy tale whereby all have a happy ending ~

i cant even meet my first celeb crush . why is all this ?

was it even a mistake to love you ?

i kept asking myself that...

i still love you ...

you kept appearing and my feelings for you came back...

will my smile and laughters ever last again ?
is what i am doing right now the right thing to do ?
i thought it was all over ..
i thought i no longer a have any feelings for you
but you seem to keep coming back to me in my mind.
why ?
why are you doing this to me ?
i thought that maybe i will no longer see you and maybe
that my heart will start to recover from being heartbroken..
but that wasnt how it turned out..
for the first few weeks i didnt see you and i was actually
wondering why you werent there and where were you ?
but i have to keep a brave front in front of my friends ,
i dont want them to think i still have feelings for him even
though i told them i had given up and they den will call me a
damn idiot for liking a guy who dont even know me still..
maybe from the start i was already an idiot ? but why cant
i just stop liking you ? why are you doing this to me ?
the most hurtful thing it that i am the one suffering of all this but
you are just there not knowing what is even happening ?
is this what it called one-sided love?
why must it be us who is suffering from it ?
when i was little i never thought and even knew there was such
a thing called a one-sided love . i always thought love was
shared happily between the one with loved . but NO , it was all
just a damn stupid LIE !
forgetting you was really a difficult thing to do and the hardest
task ever for me to even succeed in it .. maybe becos my heart
has already hidden you inside and it is not willing to let go ?
how can i forget you when you keep appearing before me ?
how can i forget you when i kept smiling to myself without
anyone knowing when i look at you ?
how can i forget you when i cant stop myself from looking at you
when i tried my best to stop ?
are you making me fall for you again ? and then break my heart
again ? is that what you were trying to do ? break my heart?
why are appearing everywhere when i dont even want to see you
but the weirdest thing is that i felt happy when i see you just now
i dunno why but i really felt like screaming with happiness just now..
i tried hard to smile but my heart wont listen to me..
seeing your face seems to my heart beats faster once more..
i know Darina must have feel the same way as me ... i know how
she is exactly feeling right now .. Hurt but yet she is still happy..
isnt it funny that he had hurt you so many times but you kept going
back to him and you could still feel that heart of yours started to
beat so fast that you felt like the whole world is falling apart just for
one guy who dont even know you existed? Darina , i know you still
have feelings for Minho , i could still see it whenever you tried to act
as though you seem pissed with him around but you tried hard not
to show it to us .. you must have felt so hurt and maybe i think that
if you tried loving him again , you're scared you're going
to get hurt again right ? you dont want to suffer anymore right?
but your heart cant stop it .. i'm your twinn and no matter
how hard you tried to hide it form me . i will still know
you're lying to us and yourself... and i feel the exact same thing..
i am heartbroken yet again .. i'm not going to love again
i'm not going to do love that breaks my heart but i cant help it..
you took my heart but you are never giving it back. ..
but once you left the school next year , where i will no longer
see you for real , i might just scream and cry again like the time
when i found out something about you and her...
i might just break down... i might just stop being myself ..
where i will no longer do jokes and laugh or even smile..
should i be like that ?
please dont go , where are you going ? why are you leaving me so early ?
i dont want to suffer any longer..
to kyu ,
I still Love You... saranghae and i will miss you next year...
will we ever meet ? will i be lucky enough ?
i cant stop myself , you are like a stain i cant erase...

will you even remember me ?

will you ever remember me?
even after you leave the school ground?
even for once will i ever be in your mind
when you are gonna leave me?
will you ever remember me ?
even after you said goodbye ?
will you ever remember me ?
even if you dont even know me at all ?
will you ever remember me ?
even if i had face so much hurt because of you?
will you ever remember me?

if i could turn back time i would ,

hey , darina look ! hyuk is waiting for you to forget that person completely
and hyuk is praying for you will be happy :) HEHEHES:D

so ,

this is my first post :D

yea.. now after reading Darina blog about my blog song ..

i can seriously realised that i can freaking relate to the song once

he will leave this school next year where i will no longer see him ..

like in the lyrics it said..

how much should i suffer?

and how much should i cry ?

for you to come back to me..

i noe you wont come to me...

and i can only dream about it

i dunno what to describe the feeling once he leave my life and i will

no longer see him in the canteen or even anywhere else.. i dun even

know how i will feel after that .. is it happiness once he left? or is it

the other way round ? will i feel even more heartbroken and lost then?

sometimes when i see you now , i wish i could look at you longer but

i cant bring myself to because looking at you just reminds me of how

you made my heart broken and made me cry without even you noticing it..

i dunno why but at times, i wish i could rewind where my love for you was

just there and i wont be heartbroken and hurt and love you silently and

my heart will still stay just fine..

just like in a lyrics of a song ..

'it would have been better if i never met you ' :(

i know Darina will understand how i am feeling right now cos she is in

the same situation .. Darina been through worse because he is always

appearing right before her when she dont want him at all... how would you

feel after someone broke your heart unknowingly and then you will

always see him smiling like nothing had happened ? it hurts alot right?

yeap.. that is how exactly how me and Darina felt..

..

will i be okay when you left ?

Darina you so wish you are the one he hugged right?

see, he is crying and you are crying cos that heart of yours is hurting right?

and look not just you is crying .. he is too .. and so he needs a hugged and

imagine that you and not eeteuk :D

why are you doing this to me ?

i;m stressed out yet again ..

today is the day where they confirm whether they are coming..

and guess what . .haishhh .. heartbreaking T_T

shit uh ...

-.-":

i dun feel like posting today uh..

so i will just rite down in point form..

1. Yanie didnt came and boy was it kinda sucks and boring T_T

2. where is Yanie anyway?

3.was waiting for results on something..

4. Stress out today :(

5.maths lesson was boring EL too ...

6.Darina saw him and was like jumping with anger..

7.nth happened actually today

8. took e bus home and end of story ..

haishhh.. yes that is it then...

told ya boring..

anyway,

gd nite

today didnt go out cos yesterday was already a damn tiring day ,

so morning i woke up and was talking to Atikah about horror movies..

then i talked her to Death Bell <3<3<3<3>

the bloody and OMG scenes throughtout the movie <3<3<3<3

i'm currently gonna watch Hansel and Gretel . not really a horror movie

but a Thriller uh .. :D HAHAHAHAHAHAS:D
anyway ,

i want to watch more but i cant bring myself to watch HON uh and it is

NC16 anyway so no point watching it ler.

erm......

i want to watch Dream Concert but no one is uploading it and it will

only be broadcast on the 30th of May ? like seriously are you kidding me?

haishhh...

so , cant wait for freaking JUNE to arrive <3<3<3<3>

should i change my blog song to SJ's your eyes? i'm in love with that song

for now because it is a duet song between KYU<3>

so ... today is inkigayo <3<3>

GOD ! SUJU didnt win today but 2PM .. haishh but anyway congrats to 2PM !

kyu was sick again like yesung had to help him ..

blahblah...

and breaking news!

Kangin appeared in the fanmeeting people he freaking appeared!

OMG! I MISS HIM SO MUCH <3<3<3<3<3

erm ... i feel like crying and i was like shivering after hearing the

news and the picture of SJ crying.. heechul .. awww.. heechul ,

you make me want to cry seeing you holdng hands with kangin <3

awww.....

kangin said this “I’m sorry and I’ll be back healthy and well.. 13 of us will be on stage in 2 years so please wait without having an affair”

[we all know that that is a lie .. and all 13 will not be together ...]

...

.. speechlesss...

.....

i am confused with my heart now

whoa..

what a day , i just came back from the hospital..

anyway ..

yesterday night i got so damn stressed that i freaking cried?

i dun want them to come but i want to see them..

but right now .. not sure and not confirm whether they are

really coming here.. hope yes and hope not..

anyway,

today is DREAM CONCERT people~

i want some hyohyuk and kyuyoung and the sunsun couple moments<3

dont you ? right twinn ?

so .. watch MBC music core live with Darina and was laggy but manage

to see half of the performance <3>

den talked talked with darina in the morning like non-stop thru FB

like seriously we were like damn high and blahblah..

okayy.. what else?

o.o i finished watching DEATH BELL <3<3<3<3

nice show to watch actually ... except for parts like the guy who

fell down the halls with wax all over the body and was marks with

the answers for the questions or the part where the girl was like in the

freaking dryer? like are u kidding sak ? like the scene is still replaying

and i am so not repeating or watching that part anymore sak...

but i love the lovestory between Ina and kimbum .. like awww...

he was like saying to her while hugging her 'i'll will protect you'

but the sad part was that and i wanted to cry looking at the comments

and the part he died and i wanted to cry for Ina .. she just met him

and he had to die uh ? WOW ?!

but good horror movie except the ending was a bit wrong and sick with

the stabbing wif a damn exe? eh-eh vomiting rite here..

anyway ..

today nth happened much but in need of twinn uh ..

hahahhhas:D

cant wait for monday and meet my dearest twinn <3<3

byes~

-nora-

you appeared but i wont look at you

haishh ,,

didnt post after the chicken thingy for yanie which was like i didnt post

yesterday .. i'm getting lazy uh to even post for the rest of upcoming days..

like i seriously am enjoying school now cos i will like cant stop laughing

with Yanie and Darina :) they make my freaking day damn hilarious <3<3

LOVE YOU PEOPLE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

anyway ,

let me tell you what happened yesterday at school first cos it was already damn

hilarious during the start of the day ..

we were like talking Duh ? what else can we do ? den darina started to sing the

HON song.. den she was like saying she wanted her hair to be like knee length,,

and den i forget what else she said but it was like damn funny with her expressions

and stuff like that.. den after den went out of class to go to Art Room :D

den darina again was like saying she wanted to walk passed class and be HON ,

like she said [omg! i'm like laughing while typing this :)] she wanted to scare the class

and walk to walk pass being a damn HON like she said she will bring a radio to on

the HON song and walk pass class with a knife :D OMG!! a radio eeh ??

which HON ghost or a ghost bring a radio for a background music ? HAHAHAH!

OMG DARINA DARINA DARINA~

den she was like damn despo to be a HON she even want to walk around sec 4 classes..

HAHAHAHAHS:D

den after that , had ART but watched movie but instead Yanie , Nisa, Darina and Me was

like sleeping cos i cant even bear to open my eyes after all the laughters and the start laughing

sign was OUT! like i dunno why but thurs we cant stop our laughters..

Yanie was like laughing like damn hilariously and Darina was like making weird noises.

what more can you get? HAHAHAHAS:D having friends like this ? <3<3

den blahbllah...

had recess and gotten ice cream <3>

anyway ,

that is the fun part of yesterday den today ,

nth much happened except we went lot one today ..

with Darina den we were like about to go off from KFC and omg situation was

finding seats and Darina just had to take her damn time to move off ..

haishh .. if not we will like walk past them uh .. eheh ! the guy w/o the bag is

seriously omg situation .. den we spent like almost half an hour at popular to

find assessment books.. like Darina was like holding books and picking all the

expensive books and when i asked her how much she bring, she said ..

the amount which cant even afford those books.. hahahahas:D

the way she picked the books is as though she has alot to spend :D HAHAHHS:D

den wen we went to the cashier .. i was like talking to her den she suddenly asked

me "Nora, asal muker kaw nervous?" translate ? - Nora why your face so nervous?

den she turned and the OMG situation guy was there but the one without bag was no

longer there.. AISH UH!!

den walked around with darina den we went our separate ways <3<3

..

the end ~

you appeared today ,

i didnt even want to look at you ,

i manage to take a glimpse of you ,

but i tried to do my best to ignore you

were even there in the first place..

you were just behind but for the first time,

i wasnt how i was when i used to see you ,

i didnt seem to care..

i dont want you taking my heart again cos ,

i will only lead me to a heart break,

but this is only once but what if i am going

to see you again ? i scared i cant stop ~

now , that is what i call hilarious :D

UP THERE IS SPECIALLY MADE BY ME FOR YANIE <3<3>

anyway ,

what actually happened today ? hmmm ...

first took the bus to school with Darina and was already laughing at

the chicken vid :D like seriously wif his hands kays not hands but

his wings is like seriously damn cute rite? he even forgot

he got no finger n he kept looking at his wings like the tip of the

wings... hahahahhaas:D kays , hilarious...

like cant stopped laughing with Darina in the bus .. hahahahhas:D

den reached school , blahblahblah..

didnt even had lessons today den got PE .. <3<3>

PE actually cos it is like raining so only play floorball which i dun

even noe what kind of game is that but just continue playing wif it..

hahahahhahas:D

kays , den have recess skipskipskip ...

den after that had GEO and that is when e fun begins ...

me and Darina was like talking about the chicken and his wings .

but Yanie was like lost but me and Darina continue to talk about it

becos it is hilarious .... den we finally decided to show Yanie e vid.

and GOD does she fall in love with that RETARD YELLOW CHICKEN!

hahahahas:D

like his face and the costume everything and his reactions are like

i cant even stop laughing and i am still laughing about it <3<3<3

den it e was Nisa's turn to be lost.. hahahahas... but we were too into

the chicken tat we forgotten about Nisa ,, SORRY!!! neh mind u have

ur guitar friend with u!! hahahahahas:D

anyway,

after that we had MT den me and Darina read our book den we gotten

really Bored.. den after that got Maths .. TEST?!?!?1 are u kidding ??

den after that went home with Darina ..

den that is my day today <3

bye~

hope u like the chicken yanie~

-nora-

suddenly it all just disappear ?

took this during recess after we finished our food :D

morning Darina missed the bus cos her mom made Hotcakes..

EH-eh .. but i dun even eat in morning makes me want to puke

even eating not even at 7 !! aishhhh.... den have assembly ...

blahblahblah .... den recess time ,

and wow was Nisa damn

like a small kid.. everything flies out! like wasted yer...

aww.... kesiannyer uh .... hahahahahas.. den we went to the

toliet to talk and in the end we ended up taking pictures<3

like den the cck was in one pair and the teck whye in one pair..

ahahahhaas:D it always ended up like that....

anyway ,

today okay uh ... my stomach is hurt from all the laughters <3

like i cant stop .. from what i remember the most from all the laughters

was when me and Darina was like talking about scars .. den i told her

my story of the scars on my back which i dunno how it even happened

and why and WHO did it ? den she was like how did IT scratch my back

when i didnt even pulled my shirt up when i was pee-ing [omo! that sounds

disgusting] kays... den i was like i maybe i peeed from my pusat ..

if you dont understand too bad... hahahahas:D go translate.. and it

will bee a damn funny answer :D muahahahhas.. den we talked about

wha if it really from the pusat and how will things worked?

like seriously my answer was like damn random :) yeap! kater Nora kan?

hehehehhehehes:D

like Nisa was like laughing damn badly along with Darina den Yanie,

came and she was LOST at first but den we told her the story ... :D

hehehehhehehe:)

anyway ,

nth much happened all i noe we GoT all OUR MARKS!!! blablah...

aish! i cant freaking wait for holidays sak! aish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

planning to do alot of things during the holidays ! yeap! alot!!

so ...

hmmmmm..... took the bus home , and in the end left me , Darina

jiamin ,Jolee in the bus which reminds me of us last year <3>

but that is in the past uh.. ...

aish ,.... goodbye uh .. dunno what else to post!

bye~

-nora-

My previous heart, now i will no longer love ~

twitter pic from Lee Donghae <3>o.o my kyu so cute uh :) looks like he really want to sleep ~

break it down to you , down to you...

super junior comeback is like damn hot people like seriously their
comeback on music core just now wad just whoooo ...
if only kyu wore what he wore for boom boom den it is just hotness
cos he was wearing long sleeves shirt with a tank top inside ..
cant i just like scream and die right now ??
hotness overload ~ T_T hehehehehehes:D
darina , why does it feels so long to want to meet you ?
like i have to wait for tmr to end den i can see you ?
haishhhh ..
i need to freaking spazz and scream wif you rite now...
i cant freaking wait..
i love today's performance all was damn good....
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
anyway ,
today nth happened except wen to lot one library ..
blahblah whoa did i find lots of books :D
cloud nine..
omg situation people , sometimes i feel like i see omg situation
den i look at kyu bonamana i feel like omg situation is getting
boring but wen i see a seriously OMG situation den it is a
really WOOOOO~~~ hahahhaas... now my mind is full of CHO KYUHYUN!!!<3
love him to the damn max.. hotness !! duh ? it is kyuhyun..
poor thing he sick .. awww... hope he gets well soonn choi sooyoung
take good care of him okay .. LOL anyway,
tmr performance cant wait any longer :D haHAHAHAHAS:d
DARINA NHO! i freaking despo want to meet you now too!!!
ending here..
bonamana bonamana bonamana ~~~

and last but not least,

read this ..

sooyoung and kyuhyun fanfic like damn heartbreaking

http://sooriforever.livejournal.com/362.html
nora--

titleless

one word HOTNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bonamana, bonamana, bonamana (Baby, you turn it up now)

first thing first , look at hyuk's cyworld post :D

isnt like cute and sweet? aww....

2010.05.13 11:38 ......this is weird why am i so nervous?.... it's definitely like when I first debut... the good kind of nervous feeling....an unusual feeling... i want to do activities without regrets. this is not something i'm just saying (casually)....i really miss you*...little blue ones.. i miss the blue wave too and...and the hair raising screams**... everyone do you miss me too? * could mean i want to see you ** he don't mean it in a bad way. source; hyukjae's cy translated by; carolyn @ sj-world.net

aish ,

cant freaking wait for tmr sak .. like seriously are you kidding me?

it is like their comeback performance and it is their first ever

bonamana performance .. who on earth will want to miss that thingy ?

HEHEHES<3

anyway ,

was watching sj bonamana mv and guess what , i realised alot

of things in the mv. like during eeteuk singing , heechul held his hands

to his legs , cos he is tired of dancin, when heechul danced in the center

he looks like he was dancing, den after the dance break , the chorus part ,

the one that hae and hyuk was infront, ryeowook wad damn hilarious and the back,

kyu did a slide which i realised yesterday ...

ahhhhhh...

hotness could be descibed anywhere in the mv ...

super junior is <3

anyway , cant wait also for star king and strong heart cos all of sj gonna be in it..

great rite? well duh people!!! darina i cant freaking wait sak...

anyway ,

weant out today .. went to jp , bought my sis speakers.. finally ...

den walk walk wif sis around Jp den buy stuffs den went home

and i freaking slept.. tired uh ...

nth else to say uh...

but for one thing for sure is that I WANT TO FREAKINGLY MEET MY TWINN !1

ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ending here..

bye~

-nora-

bounce to you , bounce to you . nae kaseum .....

eh-eh people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is finally OUT!!!

the wait is finally over !!!

cant wait for friday!! it is their comeback at inkigayo :D

people pls scream wif me rite !!

KYU IS HOTNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i kept looking at him throughout !! like love the dance break to

the damn max people!!!

kays..

after exam went to lot one and ate breakfast at kfc wif darina,

de my sis smsed me and told me about how hot e mv is and

duh me and darina went up to library to freaking watched it.

and god did we went high and darina started to make weird

noises and cant sit stilll .. hahahahhas:D

my bag too was hyper wen kyu started to sing..

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

watched it over and over ~~~ darina went panas ... and we

cant freaking breathe and started grabbing each other hands

went we see a hotness part of the dance and mv...

eh-eh....

den after that , we walked around lot one and stopped at level

3 and guess wad darina did..

u noe e pole in front of TS shop ? yeap that pole,

i told darina wad if it was Sorry sorry or bonamana instead of kara mv..

den darina told me she will freaking jumped from the pole!

den she showed me the freaking action on her gonna jumped..

den eh-eh was it unglam sia..

hahahaha!!!

like she didnt even realised it and that is e funniest part..

den after that we went home ~....

hahahhas:D

bye~

that is my life today~

-nora-

titleless

-.-"

TMR IS THE MV OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

CANT WAIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gonna watch wif darina maybe !!!!!!!!!!!!

excited people!!!!!!!!!!!

like also tmr last exam and it is art..

done my prep work only left the last page :D

HAHA! first time i am so into it .. chose e same topic

as twinn ... retreat people and it makes me think of

someone .. NO NORA!!! cant ! it must go away ...

dunno what else to post ?

hmm.. gd night?

still addicted to bonamana:d .....

den yesterday sukira or is it today sukira dunno but they shows

tniy steps on the bonamana song :D

and whoa.. COOL!!!!!!

i think these few days i dun get enough sleep...

tired !! And people good luck for your art tmr !!!

here is the video i was talking bout :D

you just had to freaking appear ?

..

i dunno noe wad to say for today ...

i dunno why we get into fights so easily now..

i dunno why i can like get angry for no reason..

i dunno why this is EVEN happening ...

why ? why ?

not just that ,

am i getting annoying ? am i getting on people's nerves?

am i being a nuisance to people ?

i dunno why but this feeling is weird..

like the feeling of someone hating you behind your back..

like the feeling of someone just try to smile infront of you

but at the back they will turn a sour face instead...

sometimes i wonder , did things change throughout the whole year?

did we get to know ourselves more and think we are not

right to be friends ?

i'm scared .. i dont want to end any friendship at all .. i love you guys..

in school , just now Nisa asked me if i was okay or why i was quiet ..

den i just shaked my head .. smiling ... she might noe there is something

wrong there but i tried not to show it... but maybe it was obvious ..

i'm just scared something is gonna happened and we wont be happy

together anymore... as wad i said we seem to be drifting...

anyway,

my NORA shirt came today~ nice or not ? my name leh..

ordered from G-market... hahahahas:D love it people~

it is long that is the main point:D and soft

today after exam went to lot one :D

den me and darina ate mac .. GOD was the service damn poor today..

me and darina kept getting up and down becos they forgotten to give

us wad we ordered.. we sat at mac to finished breakfast for almost 40 mins..

LONG~~~~~~~~~

den after that , we went to the library and listened to SUPER JUNIOR BONAMANA:D

nice song!!! addicted to it already ... MUAHAHAHAS:D
LOVE LOVE LOVE super junior <3

den watched videos , first watched heechul den darina started smiling and

stuffs den watched hyukjae and god was she noisy and damn high,,

like she started to wipe the tables wif her hands and wiping the damn

speakers on the table... like she cant freaking stop her hands from

doing weird stuffs like seriously ...

i cant stopped myself from laughing becos of her..

den we were like buying stuffs and went up and down till darina

gets so pissed like seriously .. we became damn retards sak ..

HAHAHAA:!

den after that went home and budak tinggi just had to walk there uh?

so i took the long cut home ~

muahahahas:D

so that is my life today...

goodbye people~

-nora-

is people starting to hate me?

is people starting to hate me ? i dont know why but i just get this type of feeling..

dont you when you are feeling exactlly like me now ?

what is happening ?

this feelings just sucks rite?

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anyway ,

today went out wif family for mother's day :D

went to blok 26 <3

ate there ..and whoa was there alot of people there..

and seriously i didnt noe they will be an OMG situation !

and he is the guy who takes and sends orders..

whoa.. like seriously OMG situation but never saw him

before maybe he part time.. LOL !

aish ,

tmr already geography exam den goin to yewtee and

lot one wif twinn :D maybe lot one cos i want go there.

SJ release their son at 9 tmr in e morning leh..

cant freaking wait for tmr <3<3>

andandand..

i'm in love wif hyungsik and siwan :p

hahahahahas..

kays wanna sleep liao my eyes cant open any longer uh..

byebye~

separating and falling apart...

p.s i dont really care anymore bout you ..

i had enough wasting my time....

i've been reading people's blog..

i've found so many things and realised many things..

i thought it was only me but in fact there is alot more..

we are drifting arent we ?

darina was right .. and she IS right ..

is this how we gonna spend our last year together?

but why dont i seem happy ?

we are like falling apart ...

we are like getting to fights easily and like get mad

at small matters.. WHY?

that question always lingers in my mind ...

cant we be like before ? those happy moments seems

so cheerful as compared to now ..

we seems so different now ... is it because the people in

the surrounding that is making us falling apart even further ?

i want the the moments where we will be like "hey , where are you?

never mind i will wait .. "but now is just when that happens

we just sort of say "never mind go in i have others with me" ...

-.-" is this really what we all wanted ?

i want the old memories back but like what people said ,

memories can never be brought back :(

but remember one thing , i will always Love You Guys!!

-nora-

right now my feelings are confused ..

posting again ~

happiness in the morning :D muahahahahs:D

today had maths paper 1 exam whoa! damn fast rite?

i just want it to end like now sia..

anyway ,

i was neither hard neither VERY easy .. okay okay,,,

cos i cant say it is damn easy cos later got the marks

den later disappointment -.-"

after the exam went to lot one..

on the bus wen reach the lot one area there, the bus stop,

there was two OMG situation !! people !! one look like

budak tinggi the other just as cute!! eh-eh except one is

tall the other is shorter.. awww... hahahahas:D

den me and darina was like damn retarded in the freaking bus..

yeapp!! that is us ler...

anyway ,

MV TEASER CAME OUT ALREADY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Super junior song name is bonamana :) cute nyer the name :D

hahahhaas
LOVELOVELOVELOVE!!! <3<3

so watched it at library wif darina for like more then 5 times i think?

eh-eh omg situation people!!

heechul and sungmin!!! and my KYU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*dies*

CUTE NYER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway ,

after that met mom and went home -.-"

so that is my life today..

time is passing by quickly as year goes by ..

is it really gonna end soon ??

-nora-

i still have this feelings that wont go away..

POSTING AGAIN!!!

omg situation here !!!

kays today have Science Exam ~

cant say it was easy .. cos i got stress out ..

dun even have time to sleep today ..

anyway,

after exam went to lot one ..

wif nisa and darina but nisa went off earlier and

left me and darina only .. haishhhhh..

we did out maths and listen to songs :D

thank god i finished most of the chapters alr :D

HAHAHA!!

den i hate this freaking mat ! like seriously ? are u kidding?

like i dun even noe you and there you maki akw?

like kaw ni dah byol ke per sak ?

like klau face handsome tak per but ewww... damn black ader uh..

jgn step like u will attract me or darina by doin so ..

EWWW...

me and darina was like damn pissed throughout!

like are kidding? maki akw kau dah kenape ? GILER ke per?

like , the laughed after soon .. .like seriously they are damn

disturbing... HATE MATS DAMN ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

den me and darina cant even study maths lor and we went off..

and darina did something and HE laughed and darina was

too pissed to even feel paiseh .! well DUH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

like i felt like shouting back and slappin his damn face!!!!

if only nisa or yannie was there ~ haishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....

-.-"

anyway , enough bout that ..

den we went home and he just had to come..

i was feeling alr down wif darina and he came and made

my day cos i was pissed den he just make me smile..

what is this ?

i shouldnt do this.. why cant it stop ?

maybe one day .. that one day will change everything~

so went home and studied again...

and...

tmr is MATHS exam! den goin lot one wif darina tmr~

and also tmr SUPER JUNIOR TEASER MV !!!!!!!!

MUHAHAHAHAS!!

kays

bye~

-nora-

Love is hurting me again

didnt post yesterday .. yeap!

cos i was too busy studying my science till now my head

and hands and like damn hurting and sore from thinking and

writing the notes.. HAISHH!!!

finally i had finished learning the science notes..

yay me! yay me!

anyway ,

stayed back yesterday for the little tiny maths lesson~ -.-"

den went back home den omg people! omg people!

like seriously are you kidding me ? are you seriously kidding me!

like what we like you like to ?

what the hell is this ? i thought you never liked him ?

like everyone we like you want them too ?

like since when you are into koreans? idc if you come to my blog

cos i noe you do :D HAHAHAHA!!

I freakingly dont even give a damn ~

anyway , darina was like damn pissed yesterday :( becos of this!

yeapppp`~

anyway ,

today had Eng Paper :( like hmmmm. .. the topics given was once again

a bore.. like so damn boring ... but i still do like duh ?

den had recess and boy was there alot of people .. like wad i get ?

i can only buy drinks ? and freaking made me a headache after affect..

den got the paper liao .. den like goin to be 12 like that .. i knocked out.

and slept for a while.. den i slept for like only 10 mins only ... 10 MINS ONLY!!

kays.. den after tat , took e bus wif darina and nisa :D

and then there was minho's friends .. he was like tall ? den we were like wad if

he was minho or kyu ? but we are like weird like we are forgetting them..

like searching for them is fun but when seeing them just breaks my heart

and kinda pissed when looking at them even though some people might

think i am happy and high wen seeing them there...

so , took e bus den there was this OMG situation guy there and

something damn stinky was in the bus like seriously ..

den wad a disppointment tat the guy look like louis and darina

was like giving the -.-" face for a while and we were like hmmm..

den they just had to stand beside our seats uh ? great ?

anyway , went lot one today , GOD was there alot of OMG situation !

cant i scream in happiness !??! like went me and nisa was walking, i saw

this two guys , one was from JC and the other from Unity walking den

the unity guy turned and guess wad ? he looks exactly and freakingly

like kyu ! like no joke.. like seriously .. alike like twinns:D

except he looks slightly cuter :D and i was staring at him like no one

bussiness to check if he really looks like kyu and realised he was

looking at me becos some retarded girl was like awww-ing at him (me <)

-.-" paiseh uh .. malu malu ....

anyway, saw him twice how embarrassing can it get? okayy ... didnt noe unity

had such people right darina?

tmr science de go LOT ONE man!!! hahahhhahas:d

byes~

do i really like you still ?

did you broke up wif someone ?

should i even care?

dont know why now i see your face ,

i'm not happy but just want to cry

even thought people might see i get so excited

which i am not..

forgetting you might be hard but at least i tried :)

-nora-

seeing others , you just seem normal to me now....

hmmm ...

cleaned my tagboard today ..

anyway ,

i went out today ..

and guess wad , OMG SITUATION was like over-flowing

at causeway point..

and like more then half of them is like damn fit for their

damn face and like seriously OMG SITUATION here people..

i was like smiling to myself the whole time and wished Darina

was there with me den i get freaked out and smiling here and

there with my dear twinn .. HAISHH... but sadly most of them

have alr their girlfriends.. wad e hell is this ?? haiyo ...

GOD!!!! well , even if they were alone , why will they even notice me..

HAHAHAHAHA!! it is just my wishful thinking...

bought clothes and one bag from G-Market today .. like i didnt noe

my sis will like freaking order damn fast ..... -.-"

anyway ,

hmmm... nth happened much today ...

bored bored.. studied for SCIENCE alr...

YEAP!!! left two more chapters and i'm done wif Science~

i want to save money i buy a damn polariod man!!!

i want it and need it desperately right now sia...

haishhh ... cant like a thousand dollar bill fall from the sky now?

yea.. like that will ever happened ?

currently stucked to Dont Stop Cant Stop by 2PM , it is like a song

for all 2PM haters or Antis!!! GOD LOVE THE SONG!! and

go 2PM!!! i will support u too even though i love my SJ!!!

HAAHAH!!!

SJ teaser coming out soon!! yes!!! cant wait...

ermmm.... anyway , goodbye ~

-nora-

why is it that i no longer think of you as much ?

once again , i'm confused ...

and once again one situation to another situation is occuring ..

why is this ?

last year , we were much more merrier ...

we had lots of laughters last year ..

but why is it this year we are all falling apart?

why everyone having this situations whereby no one

seems to understand clearly except the person itself?

why cant we be like last year ?

why cant we just be happy and forget past events?

but wait... it is not easy forgetting awful events..

can we be much more happier now and say farewell to

all the hurts we faced this year and the upcoming events?

please.. it is our last year together ... :) we might not have another chance :)

i'm lost and mixed feelings....

why do i get this feeling like i dont really think of you that much anymore?

why do you seem to drift apart from me further and further?

now when i see you , now when i see your name,

my heart dont really skips a beat or beats damn fast?

has my feelings for you starts to fade ?

have i stopped loving you ?

is this really goodbye and forget for me?

i dont know.. the feeling i have for you now ,

cant be described at all .. i cant find the perfect words for it..

maybe i was so hurt that time , that the feeling of loving you ,

just dont hurt any longer ?

maybe i was so hurt and in pain that i cant bear it any longer ?

maybe seeing you and her all the time , had made me realised

that i was waiting for you in my dreams only?

i dont know what i feel about you right now ...

is this feeling still called love ? or is it the feeling of being hurt

so many times and trying and succeeding in letting go that person?

let my heart takes it times to forget you completely then i get the answer..

posting again today ...

hmmm ..

today went IMM and god did i i wen to cotton on and bought a long tee and

a damn tights .. yeapp .. you heard me tights,, it is the first ever one i owned

in my little fourteen years of my life ~

i didnt tot of buying it at first but my sister persuaded me in buying it and the

next thing i noe , i paid for it alr..

HAHAHAHA!!

erm... finished my homework alr by today ! happy me and i'm free~

tmr goin out again ... haishhhhhh...

tired uh...

but hu cares ? hahahahas!! anyway ,

goonnna watch family outing cos got KIM HEECHUL people!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahas:D

ending here..

study hard people!!

-nora-