I shouldn't have looked at you in the first place

will you ever disappear from my broken heart ?

why is it that every guy i see now resembles you ?

it scares me , i thought i was just imagining things ..

did i love you so much that such things are happening?

why is it that after all this , you just had to appear ?

my heart kept beating so fast when i thought it was you ..

a few months ago , it wasnt like this at all ...

a few months ago when i finally decided to leave you and

forget all the past , i could easily forget you without any second thoughts..

why out of all people it must be you who break my heart ?

Without a word you made me know love , Without a word you gave me love

but why this love is only felt by me and broken by you ?

i hate one sided love , it makes me afraid to ever love someone again because

i am afraid if i love someone so truly , i will get so much hurt and pain and

that person whom i love will not love me back ... Love is hurting me again

and Love is making me cry again because of you ...

"should i love in my dreams

as i cry and cry again

and fall asleep in tears

it's always the same after I wake up"

no matter how hard i tried , when i wake up it always the same ,

the hurt and the suffering .. what is worse , i am suffering alone in

this world.. no one knows .. no one cares .. why cant you feel the

same way as me ? and be the girl whom you could tell your friends

"she's the one i love" ..

or even hear you say .. "i will protect you ?"

it is all just my little imagination and it will never come true..

people say to me that someday a guy will love me and care for me..

and would not let a tear drop from my face but will it ever come true?

how i wish i was in a fairy tale whereby all have a happy ending ~

i cant even meet my first celeb crush . why is all this ?

was it even a mistake to love you ?

i kept asking myself that...

i still love you ...