i had given up maybe i did ....

this is my last emo post ....

and e first post of the day ,

i don't wan to laugh, because i noe it's not going to help,

buti don't wan to cry, because it will

just make me feel even more worse.

i felt like my heart is breaking, and no

matter wad he had done to me,

it feels impossible to stop loving him.

tat is the confusing part,

i don't know why, i just do,. And den,

after a few weeks,

i had finally feel a sense of relief, like i'm getting happy again,

but i know inside that i'm just lying to myself. n after a few more

days ,i'm back to where i'm started ....

i thought i gotten over him, but really,

i just stopped showing it to my

friends the truth of wad i am feeling...

n i can't help but to show it again. n no one understands how i feel,

and how deep i am hurting,

he don't know the true pain i felt carrying each and everyday now,

and suddenly i just break down,the tears just starts flowing,

my friends says,

"It will be okay…” But i know it won't.

And tat’s the truth, it won’t. And i look back on all of

the hurt i had from this, and i realize

tat i was retarded doing all this..

i'm still hurt, but i had learned to hide it so that everyone thinks i'm like okay.

So now every time i see him, i know that i still love him,

and i could feel my heart trembling inside , screaming out,

but for some reason he cant hear it because he is not mine...

-nora-