is this the end ? is this what i wanted ? i have no other choice

erm .... posting again today .. if you dont want to get bored on reading this

emo -ly post den dont read i am not forcing you ..

well , you all know him rite ? you all know who i am going to refer to rite?

well , i am giving him up ..

i cant stand you all saying his name when he is near ..

i cant stand you especially that particular someone who says we dont stand

a chance with him .. well , i'm not that dumb to think he will actually like me ..

cant i just not like him ?

dont you know it hurts alot ? dont you know what i am feeling inside ?

dont you know that part of my heart just broke apart even though i was

laughing outside ? did you all know that fake smile of mine ?

...

i used to like seeing you .. it only been 3 month of me liking you and i had

already given you my heart .. but you didnt take it .. well , why would you

take it because you already have someone ... dont you know it hurts damn alot

to see you smiling to other girls or anyone but not me ? it this what it means when

you love a stranger , the chances of getting hurt is higher ?

why cant you remember that we used to be on the same CCA ? dont you

remember that time you came to our class and ask for us ? dont you

remember it at all ? why is it so hard just to call me and say hi to either

me or darina ? why cant you just freaking smile to either one of us ?

i used to want to see you everyday and anywhere and wish that we will

bumped into each other but now i just feel like you are everywhere and

it irks me.. i wanted to cry but my tears has already dried up from crying

after i seen you with her and finding out the damn truth ...

did you even know i cried ? did you even notice me when we walked pass ?

thinking again , i felt pathetic and retarded to wait for you after school ,

to freaking waste my time searching for you , to freakingly get hyper after

seeing your face ... Pathetic was the word .. waitin in the corner with Darina ,

waiting like some retards .. but did we even know what we were doing

was damn embarrasing ? we giggled and laughed but did we know , what the

rest was thinking when they saw us ? i even used to think you will notice us

one day .. but that was just a wishful thinking of mine ... was i really that dumb?

loving someone in silence hurts doesnt it ? loving someone who wont return the

same love to you , it just breaks your heart doesnt it ?

well , yes it did ...

tired of waiting , tired of looking for you , tired of pathetically loving someone

whom dont even know you , tired of all this !! why did you just have to steal

this heart of mine ? knowing you wont be mine , i waited for you ... was i

seriously lovesick ?

too lovesick i dont even notice what i did was wrong ? and retared ?

too lovesick to notice wad we did was damn pathetic and lame...

getting happy even though that smile wasnt for me ?

-.-"

stopping this will be the best choice for me and darina. ..

we cant stand being hurt and heartbroken any longer..

we cant stand being tease because of them any longer..

we cant stand looking at the person we love from a distance ..

we cant stand it all anymore..

just letting it go and saying goodbye .... :(

thanks to all my Best Friends who had been there with me and

didnt tease us but support us instead..

THANK YOU !!

falling for you was my biggest mistake ,

it hurts to know you will never know this ,

didnt give it to you on purpose , cant figured out how you

stole my heart without me knowing ...

but i will never forget you even if i hate you ...

-nora-